Goodbye.

  October 27th, 2011 by noname61198

Goodbye.
that’s all I can think of.
no suicide note, no guilt. Just, goodbye. I was a good kid, honestly. Now I’m only 13. Still so young and have nothing to look forward to me. Honestly what’s there good when you live in a piece of shit that your “family” can barely afford? You try to tell your family you don’t like it there but they seem to never care. Yeah, that’s always it. No one cares. No one sees how much they can hurt a person, but that doesn’t matter to them. They just don’t care. All my life I’ve done nothing but care so deeply for my family and friends, but for what? For them to betray me, lose faith in me, forget I’m there? I can’t deal with it. Sooner or later, I’m ending life. I’m ending it so I won’t have to “find out” what life will be like when I’m older. Like my mother always saiid, “you’ll do nothing but follow in my foot-steps and become nothing, do nothing.” So if that’s true, why wait and see what happens? Why not just leave the earth now and live happily somewhere else? Hell is even better than here, I can assure you. Right now I’m sitting in my room thinking of a way to end it. Drowning myself in music trying to find a better place then killing myself. Depressions on my mind all day, everyday and the thoughts of suicide are getting stronger. I don’t want help, no I don’t need help. This is my decision and there’s no one, nothing that will help me. All they can do is tell me life will get better. When? When I’m found dead in the forrest one day? Looks like it’s heading that way. Life seems like a game and I’m the one falling way behind. I lost this round, and there’s no coming back. But I don’t mind, maybe things will be better with me gone. Maybe my family will have more money to support my sister and how great of a person she is. Or maybe my friends won’t have to worry about feeling bad for me anymore. I hate it. Don’t you see why it’s time to end it all? I know I need to. Goodbye.

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