My life has spirraled into a neverending pit of sadness.I have destroyed every single relationship and friendship I have ever had in my life,my friends of 20 years no longer wish to be my friend,the only person who is in my life and is my friend is my mother,mainly becasue she has to be.I am a very complex confused individual.I say one thing and mean another.My brother hates me,my sister is only 13 so she doesnt know yet,my father abandoned me when I was little,I was molested at 5 by a family member.I feel so isolated and alone,I feel like no-one loves me at all,I know your thinking,get over yourself,self indulgent drama queen…………But how to you fix yourslef? How do you stop feeling so overwhelmed with sadness and regret for being you.The choice we make shape how we feel about ourselfves.I dont know what else to do.
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I wish I knew what to say, but don’t because I ponder the same question, let me know if you ever figure it out.
I think the first step is to empower yourself – to take action on your own life, especially regarding those things you had no control over in the past. For example, have you tried confronting the family memeber who molested you? Have you any desire to seek out your father?
I completely relate to this…sadness day after day…the pain I feel is so awful some days I am in a daze and just want to fall asleep and never wake up. I don’t know how to get the pain to go away. I wish I did. I wish I remember what it felt like to be truly happy.