My suicide attempt was in March of 2006. I have completely recovered physically and for the most part mentally. I currently attend a Christian university. I feel God saved me from my suicide. I still run into problems. When I try to share with other Christians my testimony they feel turned away by it. As a result I don’t feel accepted.
I have friends outside of school, people that have known me since grade school and those that have been friends with me since before I started college. My friends outside of college accept me because I what I have been through. That is sad because my friends outside of school believe in God, but don’t attend church. While the people at college attend church, believe in God, but aren’t very accepting.
People don’t understand why I turn to Sylvia Plath and her book The Bell Jar. It isn’t that I am trying to find new ways to kill myself but that I turn to these types of books because they are like testimonies for me. Sylvia Plath is a hero of mine because of what she went through.