bad day

when the time comes, i can’t stand in the rain. it hurts me too much because the rain drops are my tears, and they burn me like fire. i feel pain for my sister, and my parents, my friends and for those i don’t even know. no one deserves to feel the pain, so i’ll feel it for them. is it selfish of me?? am i suppose to hurt for them?? or am i suppose to die?? 12 slits and i’m not even dead.