Life is full of choices. Some good, some bad, but in the end, we all make choices every single day. The choice to get out of bed at the first buzz of the alarm clock. The choice to wear that shirt with those pants. The choice to hold the door open for the person behind you. We make choices whether we are aware of them or not. Sometimes, the choices we make are big. Like choosing where you want to live. Choosing how to act around your family. Choosing whether or not you want to take your life tonight. For me, I’m running our of choices. Everyone is done with my shit and I don’t know where to go. To me, the choice of taking my own life seems like the only choice I have left.
That’s what suicide is for me; A way out. A way of dealing with all the things I never learned how to cope with. Dealing with all the people I can’t take. Dealing with the words I don’t want to hear. Suicide is my last choice.
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I understand somewhat.
Suicide is my first choice, I do have other options but they stink like hell.
You sure it’s your only choice? Isn’t running away an option? I wanna run away.
I’ve thought about it, but I have no where to go. I have $20 to my name, and if I ran away to a family member’s house, they would certainly tell her where I was. Where were you planning on going?
I was planning on leaving the country lol. But I don’t have the money for them plane tickets. I’m in asia, I was planning to fly to Europe you see .. but not gonna happen so yeah. I don’t have the fucking courage to kill myself right now. So I just stare at walls.
I really do hope that you find the money to get away. I don’t have enough courage to kill myself either, but it’s slowly building up. Hopefully, something changes. I’m sorry you’re trapped.
Hey thanks, always good to find someone to relate to!
It is. 🙂 It makes me feel like I’m not all alone in the world!
exactly! 😀
If you ever feel like you need to talk to someone, just send me an e-mail because you’re not alone. 🙂
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I hope both of you have the means to escape.
If I had the money i’d actually wire it to you through paypal or something so you could free yourselves.
A lot of people would say doing that for someone you have never met would be stupid.
But reading this board I know you both have genuine issues and it would be a comfort to my heart to know something I did helped someone get out of a tight spot.
especially since I cannot free myself from my own self induced traps.
I know it’s just words, but your comment means a lot to me. If I had money, I would send it to someone here as well. I don’t think it’s stupid. We need to help eachother to keep us alive. I’m now moving in with my older sister, so hopefully this will be better. She’s my last resort. I hate not having any options buy fortunately I’m able to get away from my Aunt. Maybe it’ll get better. I will hope and pray that everyone who is trapped finds a way out and finds the happiness they deserve. No one should ever feel trapped. No one should ever feel like suicide is their only option.