I did commit suicide last night. I regret I didn’t cut deeper. but I went to my mom. But anyway Im alive.. and I’m ok. whatever. I don’t really know how to feel. I feel like I wanna try it again.. I don’t know. Im lost
Being lost at times is a part of life. Looking on facebook I see so many people posting all these great things about their lives and it makes me sick yet they never post how hopeless and pathetic they feel sometimes. It isn’t very common to know exactly where you want to be in life or what you should be doing. If I was happy every day I would cherish those moments. You have to have lows to enjoy the highs. I’m not being a sunny optimist. I’m being realistic too. I just sat in my garage for an hour crying contemplating how I would be able to hang myself with an extension cord. I decided against it because I have to hope like I have for the past year that things will change and my life will turn around. All you can do is hope and take action into making life something worth living.
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Being lost at times is a part of life. Looking on facebook I see so many people posting all these great things about their lives and it makes me sick yet they never post how hopeless and pathetic they feel sometimes. It isn’t very common to know exactly where you want to be in life or what you should be doing. If I was happy every day I would cherish those moments. You have to have lows to enjoy the highs. I’m not being a sunny optimist. I’m being realistic too. I just sat in my garage for an hour crying contemplating how I would be able to hang myself with an extension cord. I decided against it because I have to hope like I have for the past year that things will change and my life will turn around. All you can do is hope and take action into making life something worth living.
Call the suicide line Emmy, they may be able to help you through this rough time.