Starting this Year January 29th, I became suicidal. And ever since, ive been a freak. I’m really tired of it and 2011 was the worst year of my life.
I don’t want to live past today. No one loves me, no one cares that I’m struggling and my mom doesn’t even show compassion at the fact that I’m depressed. Yesterday, my grandma found my cutting knife in my purse. My mom called me forever retarded and didn’t even take the time to realize I had been cutting myself and was struggling. I have the worst family ever.
I am probably going to kill myself tonight. Have fun stuck on Earth mom.
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i totally agree with the 2011 year sucked ass.. but think of it this way you kill your self tonight you wont be able to laugh in all those poeples faces who thought we were suppose to die in 2012.. and you wont be able to live up you life in 2012 i guess i knw were ur coming because i wanted death so bad.. And so on.. But i hope you dont do it even though i dont know you i bet you r worth a shit ton to others and even though it might not be family.
You know, everyone has people they don’t like…and often times, it’s their family.
But you shouldn’t kill yourself just over a few people, even if they are your family.
Obviously I don’t know them, but maybe your mother was just so shocked and worried that she called you retarded without thinking (she must be very busy, if she doesn’t notice you’re depressed) and used a poor choice of words…so she might love yu, and just not have chosen the best reaction in the heat of the moment–a failing we all have from time to time.
Or she may be a rotten mother, for all I know.
But whichever is the case, you shouldn’t kill yourself–I hope you don’t kill yourself–over a few people…
The Earth has around 6 to 7 billion people on it, after all–and not all of them hate you. Most don’t even know you.
So the few that do dislike you or don’t care about you are, by comparison, nothing.
Plenty of people can still care about…hopefully, starting with yourself?
I hope you care about yourself, and your life…and I hope you stick around for another year, and allow the chance for other people to grow to know you, if even on this solitary site, because there ARE people worth knowing and meeting in life, people who do and WILL care about you.
I hope you do whatever you want to. If you want to die, do it. It is your life, you does not need to believe in craps like “it will get better” or something like that.
But somehow I agree with Hamlet… Killing yourself because some people don’t care about you isn’t worth. Think about it for sometime… Give you at least a year to think about suicide and your future.
Give yourself*
Please don’t , PLEASE! Your live sucks right now, but I know it could get better……….Your friends, will never get over this, its not okay!