So I kind of have a plan of what I’m going to do.
My life is worthless just sitting around, working my crappy retail job and not being able to pay my bills. I really want to go back to school and get a degree in something, but I don’t have the money, or the grades to get a scholarship.
So, I’ve decided to join the army or army reserve. That way, I can go to school, I’ll have a place to live, I’ll go through fat camp and boot camp so I won’t be such a fatass anymore, I’ll have a job which I’ll get paid for, everything will be taken care of.
I’ll either enlist after Christmas, or after my 21st birthday in June. By then I’ll have my car paid off, and I can sell it. Also I will be able to celebrate my birthday with my friends, not by myself far away from all the friends I love.
I’ll quit my job in retail, then I’ll give myself a week or two to relax, get all my shit together before I leave, and visit each of my friends one last time, before I go off and don’t see them again for awhile. Then I’ll get my stuff taken care of in the army, and I’ll be on the track to doing something with my life.
If, for whatever reason, this doesn’t work out, I have a plan.
I’m going to kill myself.
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Good luck in the military, …… theres another War comming, there always seems to be another War.
I hope your able to enlist, the DOD is where alot of money has been slashed from its buget
they just might not be hiring to strongly for a while.
Its always the poor that make up the backbone of the military.
I’m older so I’ve been around and have worked with alot of Veterans, I’ve alwyas had alot of respect for them.
Try to pull your 20 yrs and get a government retirement.
The service is great! No…really. 😀 You get to do so many things that you just would never ever get to do outside of the military. You are pushed beyond limits that you thought were unbreakable and you really learn things about yourself and how much you really can do that you would never ever figure out in the civilian world.
And the friends that you make in there, well, they will be your friends for the rest of your life…only amongst your peers there will you be able to relate to what you have seen and done.