i want to committ suicide and the people around me dont realize how badly i am hurting inside. I just want someone to recognize a sign anything and just say that “i careâ€. my family and friends are so selfish. i hate this and i hate my life.
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It may not sound like it but I Do Care… talk to me
🙁 its so hard right now for me ..
Feel free to talk to me. I don’t want to think that anyone would be having thoughts like this without help and care.
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whats been goin on?
heartless25 : lots of this first my mom shes been saying things to me like im worthless and i shouldn’t be alive and she regrets me being her daughter. it really hurts, just 3 hours ago she said lots of things to me which really hurt me. besides that i feel like i have no friends. ive had a rough childhood. i have tried therapy but it seems like its no help and all she wants is my money … ive have planned my suicde several times before but i always back down.
Sometimes when your family are stressed out with bills, work etc they don’t always notice that there is something wrong. It does not mean they don’t care about you.
I have made a few friends on here. People do care, you just have to find the good ones and that’s not always easy.
i’m sorry to hear that your having such a hard time right now i’ve been there almost pulled the trigger(literaly)…first i’ve done therapy and honestly i agree with you it never really helped me any just another way society can control us i think it’s a waste of time, idk about your mom but i think that she has issues anybody who thinks their child is “worthless” should have them removed its just not right its hard to be happy when the person who birthed you just yells insults you don’t need to listen to what she says when all she does is put you down. when she starts doin that mayb just go to your room and listen to music or if you have any passions do somthin with that… i am not at all against suicide if that can bring you peace then no objections but just a suggestion have you ever tried smoking weed? it definetly helps me chill out and relax…. i don’t know if im any help at all but just remember that you are special and not anything or anybody can change that and don’t let your mom’s words get to you she doesn’t know anything
Hello my friend, you on any social networks, or websites where we can chat if you wish?
I don’t know you at all, but I care about you – I’m sorry your mom says those things to you, honestly (and this is going to sound awful) but eff her, you don’t need someone in your life like that – heartless is right, it hurts terribly to have the person who birthed you say things like that. No parent should ever say those things to their kid, there’s no excuse for it. You can find reasoning behind it, backwards as it is, but that isn’t an excuse – you deserve better.
It’s a sensitive subject for a lot of people (so I hope I’m not hitting a nerve here) but you can walk away from your family just like any other bad relationship.
Your mom had you and raised you, so I’ll tell you on her behalf, she does love you -but- she has her own brand of crazy to deal with, obviously, she gave you life and then ascribed no value to it (so of course it’ll affect your mental well-being to hear that) – your distress is the sanest reaction to her craziness that I can imagine… just know that her personal ‘crazy’ is shaping yours – don’t let her do that to you.
Be the bigger person, tell her you only have room for helpful and positive role-models in your life, that you love her and hope she works on her issues but that she’s toxic and that if she has no value for your life, then you don’t need her in yours – simple as that. Then throw up the deuces and walk off into the sunset of a life free of that negative awfulness. Good luck 🙂
I just realized you’re 17, BUT at 17 you can still get emancipated in most states with a good reason – Your emotionally abusive mom is a plenty good reason and the state can probably help you out with that – try a local crisis center or hotline, explain your situation, how it makes you feel and see what your options are. Maybe you can stay with an aunt or uncle, but please believe it when I say there are options for you, dear.
I kind of know how you feel. For some time, I have been considering suicide & I drop hints & stuff to people & I don’t think they notice at all. Maybe they care, but they don’t know how to express it. We tend to look for clues that are all in our mind, but it could be that people are a reality separate from ours and may not have any idea about what we are hoping they will say or do. That being said, people do sometimes say insulting things that seem deliberate, even our parents, especially our parents, so remember that fact, people are a reality separate from ourselves. The extent you get hurt is in proportion to how close you feel to them.
@ Dolores yeah sometimes people don’t know how to react and they think it’s better not to say anything at all either because they don’t want to intrude or because they don’t want to make things worse.