I’ve had it for a long time. I’m tired of feeling this way everyday, Im tired of being the fuck up that I am and Im tired of wondering when all of this will end. I won’t and I can’t do this any longer! This will be my last week and then it’s time for me to go. I have no idea what the other side holds for me but the thought of staying here is unbearable. My 16th birthday is less than a month away, but I can’t go that long…I just can’t! Im going to spend my last couple of days creating good memories with the people I love because i don’t want bad memories to be left behind. I also need to apologise for all the heartache Ive caused and all the tears that Ive made people shed. I love my family so much and I hope they know that. I know I’ll be disappointing them, especially my little sister but I hope they’ll forgive me someday.
I hope everything goes to plan. I hope that I can finally leave this place. If it does go to plan I just want to say good bye and thank you to the people that have helped me on this site . This site kept me going, it has been my rock but I can’t hold on any longer.
It’s time for me to finally be at peace.
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I hope you find peace, somehow.
Only 16 i cant tell you how upset i am at hearing such a young one is giving up.i remember when i was your age wanting to do the same exact thing,13 times later at the age of 43 im here a bit wiser for it.i selfishly hope you stick around a bit longer you have so much to do and see before you give it all away my thoughts are with you…
I’m sorry… If you’re still around on this side, please, I’d like to tell you a few short words. I wouldn’t expect you to change your mind, but it’s always nice knowing that you’re not alone. Nevertheless, if it’s too late… I wish I could have known you. Love you, and see you on the other side.