Numb

I feel depress, I cannot sleep and the new semester starts in a day. I am thinking of dropping my classes and getting the refund. Every time, I feel slightly depress or angry, my nerves get so intense to the point where I start sharking, which is uncontrollable. I’ve been feeling frozen and empty for about three hours. I’ve done some bad things last year and I feel like I am repeating myself now that I am in communication one of my ex’s. The reason why I can not sleep because I feel like hurting myself. Whatever I say to him, he gets so angry and aggressive towards me when I am trying to be a friend but I realize that I can’t be friends ex.