Dear everyone,
I am a 12-year-old guy. My life has turned to shit ever since my mom and dad got separated last Christmas. They are now getting a divorce. My dad is dating again and doesn’t really care about how I feel about it. I don’t really know my dad anymore. Since then, my aunt got diagnosed with breast cancer. She’s doing badly and got a mastectomy. We don’t know if she’ll live. My old basketball coach, and my old teacher died. A boy in our grade with Down syndrome had a stroke and died. I have almost no friends, and my few friends don’t really know me. I recently told my friend that I loved her and she rejected me. Now, it’s torture to be with her and know we’ll never be together, no matter how hard I try. I don’t have the guts for suicide, but if I came across a gun or something painless, I would do it. Please listen to me, help me, or if I found that gun, tell me what I should write in a note.
-Z
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hey , or not alone. i would kill myself to but I’m to “chicken” to do it. but deep down i know i don’t want to. hang in there. i know its tough. I’m a 14 yr old girl and hardly anyone i know, knows me. it sucks… I’m bullied.. and my parents may not be divorced but my sister and parents fight a lot, i swear i hear screaming at least once a day…
stay strong. if you need a friend I’m here. and i won’t leave.
and that friend that u told “i love you to” if she rejected you. i know it hurts. I’ve had my heart broken so many times. but you have to stay strong. and if its hard to be with her. if you still want to be friends with her then try but if you know u can’t, maybe you need space. that sometimes is the best
remember, you are loved.
-Morgan
your 12. If you need help seek therpay. Seriously you are too young and have so much to accomplish. Yea so a girl rejected you. There are millions are girls out there. I know going through a divorce is hard(although i never been through it). But if its really affecting you you need go talk to someone. I know if i had a gun i would end it quick but you see im 16. I hate my life. i hate my school. and living is much of a struggle. Seriously you haven’t seen what life is neither have i. Like i said you should go and seek a Therapist. Have someone you could talk to about this.
Going through divorce is a very tough thing. It’s super hard, and very painful. Your mom and dad both love and care for you, even if you may not feel that way. Your dad is trying to move on, and by him finding a girl that he wants to spend time with, that’s his way of trying to cope with his lonliness. It is, in fact, hard for the kids to deal with. I understand your position, and it is a very hard one to be in. I am sorry to hear about your aunt. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer as well, but she is making it, and there is hope, when it comes to that stuff. There’s treatment, and with a lot of positive reinforcement, anyone is strong enough to make it through any battle. I’m sorry to hear about the losses that you have faced, those are difficult, but unforuntately, road bumps that we all have to endure in our lives, you, unfortunately again, have been exposed to them at such a young and raw age. As for the girl, you will soon realize that they will come and go, some will stay for a long time, while others stay for just awhile. I promise you, there is someone out there for you, but the best thing that you can do for YOU, right now, is to focus on you. Fill your days with things that make you happy. Try talking to your dad about how you’re feeling, let him know that what he’s doing is upsetting you, and all you want to do is talk. Do the same thing with your mom. The faster you open the communication lines, the faster things will start to run smoother, and feel better. Enjoy the things that you find enjoyment in; whether that be playing sports, listening to music, drawing, going for bike rides, whatever the case may be. Get involved, it will help you a lot in the long run, and when you get older, it will help you figure out what helps you deal with stressful situations. As for thinking about dying, when I was your age, and those things were happening to me, I felt the same way, but, it’s no way out, and you have so much to live for. You have the world outside your front door, waiting for you, and waiting to offer you so many things. Don’t miss out on your chance to be a part of something great. Journaling is another way to help put your mind at ease, it will help you filter your negative feelings, in a positive way, give it a try. I’m here if you need to talk, and if you get lonely, or need some advice, please feel free to email me whenever you’d like amanda_pairs333@hotmail.com Take care buddy, I wish the best for you.
yah listen to suicidekiller. but tell someone you really trust!
Hey.. you know firstable i want to say i’m sorry about everything you are going through I’m not gonna say I know how it feels to be in your place ’cause i don’t, but I can tell you that I know how it feels to be surrounded by a lot of hurtful things you wish you could control and you just don’t know what to do you just want to make it stop somehow. I can tell you, I tried to commit suicide once, well i failed, that moment is not pretty you know a lot of things go through your mind and is really painful i mean emotionaly. What i can tell you is that if you get over such a difficult time, because beleive me bad times eventually go away, you will become a stronger person, you will realize what you are capable of, if yo decide to commit suicide well you will never know. Think about it really well you are still really young.
Stay true to yourself, follow your heart, find someone you really respect and share your worries with them, talk about where to go from here.
You’re surrounded by lots of difficult things, but you sound like quite a bright, mature kid. If you get the right people on your side, I think you have a chance of making it.
hello
my name is sol
im twelve, and a girl (though you could probably guess from the name)
my mother has cancer, and so does my aunt
and my grandfather
and basically the rest of my family
well, the rest of the females
so i know how you feel with the cancer thing…mostly because i will get it…
and being rejected? im sorry to hear that
im not the best looking, or the best person…so i have been rejected several times
hang in there.
i don’t want to be the only twelve year old
@solitarywalker
whats ur story
not much, i lived many places…i guess that that is the route of the problem
so i’ve never really had friendships that have withstood the test of miles…
i have to take care of my brother who is bi polar
i’ve been bullied for being the nerd since i was in first grade
my mother is in denial and pretty much ignores me
and all and all
i would really like to die
…hopefully murdered
@solitarywalker
where r u now
is ur brother nice 2 u
dont listen to the other kids
they r assholes
talk 2 ur mom
if u want 2 talk u can
well, listen, i’ve tried all of those things
and my brother can be very nice…like today, we were reenacting south park…(we were bored)
i live in indiana, im presently in my room (there’s a picture of me which i just put up if you want to know what i look like)
and sure, my email is cashannon151@comcast.net i never check the other one
okay….for some reason the comment above says “Your comment is awaiting moderation.” what the hell does that mean?
Did you post a link or something in it?
yes…
Everytime you post a hyperlink, your comment goes into a queue to be reviewed and moderated. I can actually see your comment in the pending section on the dashboard here:
suicideproject.org/wp-admin/edit-comments.php?comment_status=moderated
Just so, Sol, you’ll have to wait till the OP comes back and ‘unmoderates’ it. Hope you’re okay. 🙂
🙂 okay, ill just repost without the link
well, listen, i’ve tried all of those things
and my brother can be very nice…like today, we were reenacting south park…(we were bored)
i live in indiana, im presently in my room (there’s a picture of me which i just put up if you want to know what i look like)
how do u reenact south park?
…its a long story…do you have facebook?
Hey, I’d like tO help you with what your going through if you want to contact me ask me for my number or email and we can talk. I’m here for anyonE who needs help I’m a very good listener and I give good advice and I’ll help whenever I can.
Do you have a Facebook because i would love to hear all of your story my name is Zakkary Houle please no one be me to me if you add me I just want to here his story or your because I am going through a hard time just like everyone else I have been rejected more time then you can count but add me if u have. A problem or if you have any suggestions on my life but message me don’t post on my page please I don’t want anyone to know that I am depressed.