I’ve been doing really well for the past month or so,Â
But when I really think about it, I still think I’d be happier dead. At times like these nothing is majorly wrong, I just don’t want to be here. I hate living here, I want to die so I can truly be happy and be free. Sometimes I google key words of how I’m feeling to find blogs or pages of people who feel the same. when I googled this time nothing came up, does anyome else ever feel like this?
but it’ll come back, it always does.
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Death isn’t freedom or happiness, it’s nothing. Nothing romantic about it, just, nothing.
same thing here for me. but i see dying as a way to end the pain but i’ll never get to know how it feels to be free of the pain because i’ll be deal. would be so much better to be able to live and feel the release but I don’t see that happening.
Do you feel that it’s possible for a release to happen in this life? I mean, even .00001 is possible, right?
I know what your talking about I wish for it too. I know logically if I’m dead I won’t know what it’s like being free and happy, but being dead seems good because there’s nothing left that can hurt me.
death is nothing is heaven. if you analyze the idea of heaven, realistically, it can only be the absence of everything and anything. our lives are held together by opposing forces, 2 major ones are pleasure and pain. cant have one without the other. to remove pain is to remove the possibility/perception of pleasure. you cant enjoy sunny days without a few rainy ones to make you groan and long for the heat. some people prefer the rain and so sunny days piss them off.
we eat ice cream despite the cold, we take the pain to get to the delicious pleasure. happiness is unhappiness; theyre always together. death IS freedom. the brain is shut down so perception ceases. no more living on emotional spectrums at the mercy of a brain that you have very little control over.
to the above commentors, wishing does nothing. lamenting over your unhappiness wont make it go away. if youre really “at the edge”, then you should have no problem taking drastic action in your life to get yourself happy. its like the last day of school; youve got your passing grade so the day is just a formality. you dont HAVE to show up but theyll be showing movies and playing cards and signing yearbooks so why not just go and cut loose?
you want change in your life? make it happen. you know exactly what you want but the fear of taking it or saying it or doing it is holding you back. buuuuuut, you wanna kill yourself? how can you have fear of shaking your life and banging against the side of it till works right but suicide is perfectly plausible? think about that.