you know when you say you hate someone, and then everything they do seems to annoy the fuck out of you?….well thats where i am in my life right now. im at the point that i hate everything i say and do.
 i hate the way i speak, my voice seems too boyish to be a girl. was i meant to be a man?
 i hate the way i walk. was i born with a fucking stick up my ass?
 i hate the way my breasts make my shirts tight. i just wish i was flat chested like everyone else in my family!
 i hate the way i look. ive never looked like the person i feel like i am on the inside.
i hate how fat i am! the last time i was happy i was 9 in the 5th grade; i weighed 140lbs.(still overweight for my age tho).
 i hate that i hate myself. i hate that death eludes me whenever i seek it….the only thing i really seem to love is my dear lover Death….but he doesnt seem to love me back….i hate my life!!
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What isn’t there to like, from one stranger to another there is always something to like about someone. Humanity comes in all shapes and sizes-we are old grey haired.
Hey Luna, I hope you know that everyone hates themselves at one point or another. Sometimes the way I talk annoys me. However, I’m very soft spoken and someone is always asking me “what was that?”. So, even talking too “girly” can be a bad thing.
You have to learn to love yourself. It’s very hard to do, I know. You need to focus on things you like about yourself. Anything at all. I’m almost positive that there is something good about you that you just aren’t seeing in yourself. And if you think that your insides don’t match your outsides, you have to find the confidence to make it so. When you accept yourself for who you are and stop beating yourself up, you learn to love yourself, and others will follow suit. Just hopefully that person isn’t death. :]