Why do I have to be depressed? Am I not aloud to enjoy life? Instead of being sad all the time, always wanting to cut when I can’t handle it, and thinking about killing myself. Maybe if I kill myself the pain will go away! Please I hate this!
I go to sleep every night hoping that whn I wake up I’ll be better. Or that I won’t wake up at all… I usually cry myself to sleep and wake up with puffy eyes….. Why did I have to get depression? Why does it even existe?
Make it go away…that’s all I want…. I want to be free…
-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle!
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Do you have good and bad patches or is it just bad all the time?
@muspelhem
it usually has been going on and off for a while but its beed 4 months straight now,
Morgan,
It could always be worse….I am an emotional person as well….but the down side….I’m allergic to my own tears….I can’t leave my house for days after a good emotional storm. The depression does actually serve a purpose….but that is not so important right now….right now you have to focus on getting to the next good day. So just let it out….you don’t have to solve all your problems today…or even tomorrow….but it will help if you can learn to talk about your emotions….maybe then they won’t overwhelm you soooo much. I know I’m older than dirt….but even I say to my friends when I can feel the emotions getting tooo much…don’t worry guys…I’m either having a breakdown …or a breakthrough…but somethings gonna break…lol…and I always come out the other side with minimal damage and a new understanding about life. You are confused perhaps…but there is nothing wrong with you…you just have a full spectrum of emotions to deal with…and not everyone does…on top of that you are extremely sensitive, intelligent, and curious…not always the easiest but definitely the reason you are suffering…you are not bad, wrong, or less than….you are good, right and just a little more than the average Joe.
Hang in there
Amakua
Amakua
thank you, I’m glad there are some people out there who understand me. and your one of them 🙂 i find I’m happy when i read