i don’t no how much longer i can stay strong

Do you have a guidance counselor at school you can talk to? Or maybe you can tell your mom that you would like to see a counselor …you can be more specific with your mother or you can tell her you’d just like to talk to someone about your future and where your life is headed. But please talk to someone…it’s not unusual for people to put on a happy face on the outside but be dying on the inside emotionally, the problem is that people never suspect that because you do such a good job of bringing other people up. There’s nothing wrong with that but you have to take care of YOU also!

As far as thinking you’re bi-sexual, tell a trusted counselor and deal with it in a safe environment, but there’s no need to deal with that publicly or even with your father at this point in your life. You’re young and still working all of these things out so don’t be too hard on yourself. If at some point in the future you choose to share that with others you can do so with those whom you trust and at a time in your life when things are more stable and you’ve had time to work it out.

Please don’t be afraid to reach out to those in your life you trust, I’m sure if you told your mom you really would like to talk to a counselor she would listen to you and get you the help you need. Tell her there are just some things you need to sort out, tell her life isn’t always easy and you want to be the best you can be. You DO have a lot to live for, and you CAN be what you want to be. Who cares if you’re different? Take a look around and see how many people who are successful are different somehow…maybe it’s not always apparent but I guarantee you that most successful people out there have something that sets them apart from the others, there has to be, otherwise everyone would achieve what they did! And you are NOT a mistake! And it was no mistake that I stumbled across this site and YOUR post, there’s a reason for everything…I believe God has heard your cry. Please reach out…I KNOW people care about you, go to those that you know do and don’t be afraid to show what’s inside and let them know you need some help. There is no shame in that, we all need it from time to time, this world is hard and we have to help each other. You have a reason for being on this earth, so don’t give up now…it will get better!