I am new to this. I don’t want to talk to my friends or family because they will worry I might do something stupid. And I will be honest, the thought has crossed my mind. But the real issues are how I continually get into a situation where I care SO MUCH about someone and they end up using me for my generosity and my kindness. Omg I could write a freaking book! I am just so tired of being the nice guy when all everyone else sees you as a welcome mat. Oh hi, you’re convenient, I’ll be nice til I wear you down to where your not useful anymore. It’s truely exhausting to try to be everyone’s everything and to be tossed aside by the people I always thought would never ever betray me. I’m in the last inning with a full count, is it wrong to wish for a miracle? Either get the game winning hit or get hit so hard I will forget everything.
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Trying to live yourself for others it hard and not very healthy. I lived a lot of my life that way and still do. I know how you feel. It sucks putting yourself out there and then getting taken advantage of, but I always felt guilty for doing things for myself. One day someone will truly appreciate you for who you are and what you have to give them and will match what you do 100%.
I know it’s not healthy and it’s probably why I get so tired. I did something for me today though, and today has felt a little better(aside from getting sick)
So what if they use you what matters is your intention you did something good be proud of yourself