i get so tired of wearing this fake mask hidding my feeling and pain inside making like im doing fine and im not depressed anymore but when i get alone i cry, cry because im in pain because im hurt and sometimes cry for nothin at all im just ready to say fuck it and go threw with my plan which is to die of carbon monoxide it seems like the easyest way to die no pain no nothing just death
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Then you don’t have to have a mask you don’t have to feel the pain. If you want you can erase the pain in you by trying to be happy. By trying to move forward in life. It is hard like a child learning to walk, but eventually you will reach there. Why die when a better life is right in front of you waiting for you to reach it. How to reach it? It depends on your situation. Why do you hurt?
Sometimes you can be so convincing that no one realises anything is ‘wrong’ with you, especially as it’s natural to want to think that everything’s fine. Maybe if you try to stop masking your feelings it won’t be so painful? Can you say what it is that’s hurting you at those times?