What’s up guys,
I want to reach out to you all. I recently discovered this blog and it’s been an amazing experience reading so many people’s stories. I want to hear more. It’s kind of keeping me going right now. I guess the question I have for everybody is why can’t we do it? Why can’t we take that extra step? What is holding you all back personally? I have failed multiple times in the past six months and I just can’t bring myself to do it just yet. That is why I’m reaching out to you all. I want to make sense of it all and see what other people think. Let me know how you feel. Also, since so many of us depressive type tend to spend hours on the internet, I would love to link up on Tumblr. Follow me at theloversandkillersblog.tumblr.com I will follow back.
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The reason i cant do it especially now is because something inside me still believes that other people are right and that things will get better. The fact that i know people love and care about me although they might not always show it or act like they do helps keep me here. i cant imagine hurting the people i love especially when i know how bad it hurts to loss someone you care about and how much losing someone changes your life. Last but not least my whole life i have tried to keep up with the expectations people hold of me and just to know that suicide would destroy everything that i worked so hard to maintain. that fact that im scared of whats waiting for me after dead does not make it any easier.
Last year my uncle got cancer and I had to watch how his family fell apart while I felt like a dickhead because all I wanted to do was die. Well, I don’t want them to have to go through that all over again if I die.
Honestly?
Video games.
I had to hold off a planned attempt just because I managed to dig up an old game that I played for a few hours which spanned into days. Almost complete though, so the plan’s still on. I am sad that I won’t be able to see and play future games, but my death is too much a priority, no matter how much I love video games.
Damn I’m with you all the way bro! I was just asking the same thing today.
I yahoo answered the shit lol
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20120201145550AAjeRSZ
I mean if I didn’t have relatives I’d be long gone :3
I find so much more peace in death than living. I’ve never been much of a fan for this life. Especially when I deal with depression often too. I don’t hold on for things to get better, I just don’t care to do the same old things my whole life; smile smile eat eat sleep sleep grow old and die. I want to hurry the process. And I’m by no means an evil man(!) Society holds you back, everyone thinks life is so great, or they pretend so. Idk
The reason I can’t do it is the fact that I usually fail at anything I do, so I figure I’d just end up crippling myself if I tried 😛
Damn I’m with you all the way bro! I was just asking the same thing today.
I yahoo answered the shit lol
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20120201145550AAjeRSZ
I mean if I didn’t have relatives I’d be long gone :3
I find so much more peace in death than living. I’ve never been much of a fan for this life. Especially when I deal with depression often too. I don’t hold on for things to get better, I just don’t care to do the same old things my whole life; smile smile eat eat sleep sleep grow old and die. I want to hurry the process. And I’m by no means an evil man(!) Society holds you back, everyone thinks life is so great, or they pretend so. Idk
I thought the sleeping pills and turmoil combo would be a pcareful out. I thought i would fall asleep forever. Wish i did. It was hard. I had bad bowel movements and vomited every 15 min it seemed for 24 hrs. Then someone found me and took me to the hospital. Now i research ways online. I came to realize it is not that easy. There is always a chance of survival and it would be such a let down to survive once again. The next time it has to be a sure thing.
“Tylenol” combo not “turmoil”.. sleeping pills and turmoil combo. This dumb spell check on this phone.
Aaargh… again tylenol and sleeping pill combo…..
Damn I’m with you all the way bro! I was just asking the same thing today.
I wish I didn’t have relatives so I could just leave hah
I find so much more peace in death than living. I’ve never been much of a fan for this life. Especially when I deal with depression often. I don’t hold on for things to get better, I just don’t care to do the same old things my whole life; smile smile eat eat sleep sleep grow old and die. I want to hurry the process. And I’m by no means an evil man(!) Society holds you back, everyone thinks life is so great, or they pretend so. Idk
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I tried with pain pills went to sleep but woke up…..so sick to my stomach. Why? We leave in an evil world tried to change my way of thinking hide behind a smile don’t eat or sleep. Why u may ask? For me I think its a sin to wake up in a torment of hell. But sometimes feel like for some we live in our own hell. I hope and pray and tell myself today will different. I help people in need with what ever they may need a wish and pray for carma…..ying Yang…..good and evil. When will things change saw and dealt with so evil waitingfor the balance….waiting for good to be blessed but don’t take the things I do have for granted.
No-I’m done finally.Its been a long time in coming .Yes, people will be angry, probably say I was selfish,crazy,piece of shit, a waste of flesh, but guess what? I won’t hear any of that and the abuse I take now is enough.Whether its self inflicted or brought on by others. I finally have a master plan-even got money together for my cremation, just a little bit longer to make things just right.I wish you all well and think over your decision carefully.It is your right, you are your own person and no one can make this decision.Do not let anyone sway you either way.If you really are that miserable, think how you are making others feel.That’s what I’ve come to myself.No more suffering.