I don’t know whats wrong with me

I don’t know how to explain my self. WHO AM I.

Im seeing a  new therapist today and im extremely anxious.

I don’t even know what to say to her.

AM I SIMPLE OR AM I COMPLICATED

I don’t know where to start.

I don’t want to have miscommunication and misunderstanding

I am scared of myself.

I am scared of finding myself. Who I truly am.

I don’t know how to introduce myself like how do I define myself if I can’t think clearly, if I don’t have much going for me, if I don’t have real friends if I do not have many strengths, or interests. I bad at just about everything, I only have a few useless talents.

I don’t know what I want.

I don’t even know what my real issue is.

No one really understands.

I dont understand

They say its social anxiety but that is not specific enough.

It’s more of anxiety with who I am and what people whom I KNOW perceive me as.

I don’t like talking. Let alone about my personal issues with a total stranger.

Till their in my shoes, they cant judge me though eh

If only they knew.