Hi Christina… I’m sorry you’re struggling. Your life does have purpose… Absolutely. There is a reason you are here. If you want to talk, many people here will listen.
Your living life hun… Just keep on doing that, because your alive for a reason, possibly undiscovered [ For Now ]. Just keep on pushin through everything..Your going to love it one day.
Im failing college, i still feel fucked up about my ex dumping me 3 months ago, i don’t really like my friends.. I’m with my friends right now but id rather leave.. but i can’t stand being alone, i hate being left alone with my own thoughts. i am crazy. Fact. I’m disgusting. fact. I despise myself more than anyone or anything in the world. in my opinion im not worthy of living.
What are you studying? Sometimes people have difficulty because the subject matter is complex… or sometimes the course doesn’t interest them. Are there classmates you can study with… or a teacher’s assistant or professor you can work with? I’m sorry about your ex. I know how that feels and it is tough. You mentioned you were with friends… and your friends can often help you when times get tough. I understand wanting to be alone… At the same time, it’s probably a good idea for you to have company and be social. It can make moving forward easier.
You definitely aren’t crazy… and definitely not disgusting. What has happened to put yourself in a negative light? You deserve to smile and enjoy the good times… and the good times do come back around. You are DEFINITELY worthy of living. College will prepare you for the next chapter of living… and you can succeed. No doubt.
All i feel like doing is smoke weed and cut. All i do all day is smoke weed and cut/thinking about wanting to cut. and i am so fucking exhausted all the time. Even if i haven’t smoked weed yet (i don’t smoke before school). my moodswings have been dramatic. I work as a webcamgirl to earn money dp i can buy weed and speed. I disgust myself but it makes good money. And i don’t think I’m good for anything else. I’ve always been disgused by myself.
My friends are okay but happy people just dont understand i guess..
Wanting to die is not something i thought of recently.. I’ve been wnting to die since i can remember.. still i haven’t done anything about it because I’m a coward. i don’t want to fail.
I also don’t want you to fail… I think you have a lot more to offer than you give yourself credit for. If you don’t give yourself the opportunity to succeed, you’ll work against yourself. I’m glad you haven’t acted on your thoughts… When you have time, think about things that you want to do (whether or not you think you can do them!)… and then think of ways that you could accomplish them. If you want to be more than a camgirl who smokes weed, you’ll certainly be more than that. Ultimately, you’re in the driver’s seat… and you call the shots. Don’t give up on yourself.
I think that will change one day… Maybe it will, perhaps not… But I would set yourself up for success in case it does. I would work hard in college so you get the degree… and I would establish a good group of friends who might be able to help you network down the road. What happens now will happen now…. but I’d keep the future in mind to cover the bases. No matter what you do, your life is worth living. Don’t give up.
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Hi Christina… I’m sorry you’re struggling. Your life does have purpose… Absolutely. There is a reason you are here. If you want to talk, many people here will listen.
I actually dont know what to say.. so,
When the time comes and you want to say a little more, this is a good place. You’ll find lots of support.
Your living life hun… Just keep on doing that, because your alive for a reason, possibly undiscovered [ For Now ]. Just keep on pushin through everything..Your going to love it one day.
please talk to me if you want
ok. Lets talk.
I dont think theres anything left to say actually.
Whats going on?
I dont know,, nothing new.. just the same shit as always
What kind of stuff is happening?
christina, i dont kknow what to do with myself either, glad theres someone else
Im failing college, i still feel fucked up about my ex dumping me 3 months ago, i don’t really like my friends.. I’m with my friends right now but id rather leave.. but i can’t stand being alone, i hate being left alone with my own thoughts. i am crazy. Fact. I’m disgusting. fact. I despise myself more than anyone or anything in the world. in my opinion im not worthy of living.
What are you studying? Sometimes people have difficulty because the subject matter is complex… or sometimes the course doesn’t interest them. Are there classmates you can study with… or a teacher’s assistant or professor you can work with? I’m sorry about your ex. I know how that feels and it is tough. You mentioned you were with friends… and your friends can often help you when times get tough. I understand wanting to be alone… At the same time, it’s probably a good idea for you to have company and be social. It can make moving forward easier.
You definitely aren’t crazy… and definitely not disgusting. What has happened to put yourself in a negative light? You deserve to smile and enjoy the good times… and the good times do come back around. You are DEFINITELY worthy of living. College will prepare you for the next chapter of living… and you can succeed. No doubt.
All i feel like doing is smoke weed and cut. All i do all day is smoke weed and cut/thinking about wanting to cut. and i am so fucking exhausted all the time. Even if i haven’t smoked weed yet (i don’t smoke before school). my moodswings have been dramatic. I work as a webcamgirl to earn money dp i can buy weed and speed. I disgust myself but it makes good money. And i don’t think I’m good for anything else. I’ve always been disgused by myself.
My friends are okay but happy people just dont understand i guess..
Wanting to die is not something i thought of recently.. I’ve been wnting to die since i can remember.. still i haven’t done anything about it because I’m a coward. i don’t want to fail.
I also don’t want you to fail… I think you have a lot more to offer than you give yourself credit for. If you don’t give yourself the opportunity to succeed, you’ll work against yourself. I’m glad you haven’t acted on your thoughts… When you have time, think about things that you want to do (whether or not you think you can do them!)… and then think of ways that you could accomplish them. If you want to be more than a camgirl who smokes weed, you’ll certainly be more than that. Ultimately, you’re in the driver’s seat… and you call the shots. Don’t give up on yourself.
The thing is i don’t want to be anything better. i don’t want to do or be anything.
I think that will change one day… Maybe it will, perhaps not… But I would set yourself up for success in case it does. I would work hard in college so you get the degree… and I would establish a good group of friends who might be able to help you network down the road. What happens now will happen now…. but I’d keep the future in mind to cover the bases. No matter what you do, your life is worth living. Don’t give up.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgcovIu3k9o
Only you can answer that.