You know what? Its spring motha-fukin break, and I might as well enjoy it cause its gonna be my last. I wanna leave those around me with atleast one good memory. i owe them that much. in somewhere around thirty days, ill be dead. Hopefully. So self loathing is gonna take a back seat while i put a smile on my damn face and act like im normal. Normal…why cant i be normal?? Why? Why? WHY? to many fucking questions and absolutely no answers.
Goodnight/Morning and the best to you all
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If you’re able to do that for 30 days, why not just keep doing it for the next 40 or 50 years?
Because I am using every last drop of sanity to make through this, and its not for me…its for them. And come the end of thirty days, if i can live for Me then it will be a different story, but i doubt that will happen
i think you could go well beyond 30 days… Yes… It would take a lot of effort and there would be some moments of challenge… but I’m willing to bet that you could do it. You said that you’re living for others for the next few weeks… Give them a chance to help you in return. If you’re struggling, share it.
Share with them?? I think if the situation were that simple then i wouldn’t have a problem going on with life. But nothing is ever that simple is it?