These suicide thoughts are becoming overwhelming. Im done, I can’t do this anymore. No one cares no one will listen. All he does is keep hurting me there’s no point anymore.
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We’re here to listen if you want to talk about this…and we care what happens to you…
I’m not going to say it’ll all go away in the snap of the fingers or know for sure that everything will be okay – but I think it’s worth another shot.
I’m sorry that he’s hurt you, especially to this point… As I’ve seen for advice often here, don’t let your happiness depend upon another – you have to make yourself happy. Tell those that hurt you to move on because you don’t want to deal with them…
Anything I can do? Surely willing to listen…
I hope you have thought plenty about this… and I wish you some peace and happiness.
ill listen if you need me to…I probably wont be much help, but Ill listen. Im going through what sounds like something similar…and no one listens to me
I don’t know why I stay with him. He beats mex he talks to girls and wants them to come over when I’m at work. This is my so called fiance were talking about. The person who “wants” to spend the rest of his life with me. What is wrong with me? Why am I not good enough? What dis I do so wring to be treated this why.?;
🙁 I’m not the best relationship person, but that sounds quite wrong to me… You are being treated wrongly! You don’t deserve this nor a person that beats you…
You didn’t do anything wrong, you’re not the problem. You should not be being treated this way… I hope you know that.
I don’t know what’s wrong with these kind of people…the problem is with them. Trust me, they’re in the wrong and not you… I’m sorry you’ve been treated in this horrid manner… 🙁
I don’t want to tell you what to do, but he doesn’t sound like a person you should want to spend your life with either…
And that’s the thing, we have been in so many physical fights its sad. He never takes the blame, its always “stephanie you need to take your meds, your the reason why we fight” how am I the reason we fight when I catch ur dumbass red handed but u beat me for what ur dumbass did. I fight back to stand my ground. I told him one time to just kill me, and he has come close, I wish he did. Everyone at my work knows he does this and they wanna beat his ass for touching me. I don’t know why I’m still with him I really don’t. Could it be bc I think he could change? That I enjoy the beatings? That I do care about him?? I do t know
Well I’m glad you know he’s the dumbass and is the one in the wrong. Also that even you’re whole work wants to beat him, sheesh he deserves that. Good, I’m glad he didn’t kill you.
I’m not the most knowledgeable person so not sure if I can help you figure out why you chose to stay. Though I wish you did not, you don’t deserve his beatings and he doesn’t deserve you!
I just don’t know, I’m afraid of being alone. I fought so hard for us to be together, but this was not worth the fight. In going to lose it
Well I dont know about you. I know my ex would always blame everything on me for being crazy. But I guess it was my fault a lot of the times. He would hit me too sometimes, but only if I had driven him insane. I would provoke him to hit me. I knew exactly which buttons I needed to push. Sometimes I would hit him because I know he would hit me back. I guess I enjoy to be beaten. But I’m a fan of physical pain for myself though. If he would hit me I would need to do it myself. Or I wouldnt need to cut myself that night because he had already “punished” me.
Deep down you know the reason you stay with him.
would not need to it myself*
I feel the same.exact thing. I know what buttons to push, and I know how far to take it till he busts. But I’m In the wro.ng when I find texts from his ex it texts saying “oh she will be at work wanna come over. ” I’m not good enough for no one and I guess that means him bc I drive him.to the point
Being alone is scary…trust me that I know. But I don’t think you should be in the relationship in which you’re in fear too, knowing that he’ll beat you and blame things on you – when it is he in fault. I’m sorry you fought so much just to reach this point…
You deserve someone who will treat you right and with respect.
Thank you, I.just wish he would see what he has before its to late and I’m gone
Mhm, he was the one lucky to have you in the first place. So either he better realize how much you are worth and his vast amount of wrong-doing or he’s going to get a bye bye, see you never.
Yes, that’s very true. I just need to suck it up and kick him out
Well if he doesn’t truly and sincerely recognize his wrong-doing and you don’t think he will change then I don’t see why he gets to be with you. You aren’t a thing he can use and abuse.
The .only time he would say yea wrong is if its something small and stupid. Not when he wants.girls to come.over, no never, that’s all my fault. I’m already self consious (sw) about myself and when he.does that makes me think that I’m ugly that I’m just nothing
Ayeyeye. How in the world is it your fault? I can’t believe this guy…
I hope you know you’re not ugly nor are you nothing! 🙂 He simply doesn’t understand how wonderful you are – which is his fault. I wish he did not do such things to cause you to feel this way :/
@crying – It sounds like your fiance is mentally ill if he thinks that you could ever do anything to justify physical violence. If he always blames you, can never accept he is wrong, twists everything to suit his own needs, well this sounds like narcissistic personality disorder. And know that you can NEVER win against some people, because they don’t see clearly. They will only drive you mad with their own madness. I’ve seen it happen to the most intelligent, kind people and it’s heartbreaking. No matter how much you talk or rationalise, they only see things in a way which suits their own needs. You should call a crisis line if you need to talk, but I really hope you walk away from this guy.