Sorry, everyone, but tonight you are going to read what my best friend so aptly describes as “The inessential ramblings of a disconsolate teenager”. I write on many subjects, love being one of them. This is meant to be a song, but I can’t write music, so it’s just lyrics. I wrote this a few weeks ago. For all of those heartbroken tonight, I feel your pain. As always, FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED (as are suggestions for a title).
I used to try
To separate reality from the lie
To keep my dreams distant
Especially while you were present
Because my mind has a mind of its own
It has a condemning utterly romantic tone
Which warps my already-mangled perception
Of our nonexistent connection
But my mind wanders
Farther from truth
And I can’t help but ponder
An alternative reality with you
Knowing, all the while
That I will fall like a child
Into the foreboding dark pit
And the torture awaiting me
Will carry on for eternity
My mind remembers but my heart forgets
And now I cry
When the songs remind of your happy eyes
They will never be mine
To find comfort and joy inside
I sit watching you fall in love with her
Thinking that I know I could be so much better
But truly understanding that I’m poison
You’re smart to kick me away; you’ve good reason
Still my mind wanders
Farther from truth
And I can’t help but ponder
An alternative reality with you
Knowing, all the while
That I will fall like a child
Into the foreboding dark pit
And the torture awaiting me
Will carry on for eternity
My mind remembers but my heart forgets
Possibility is a plague
Hope, a stealing knave
They burn my mind
And ruin my short time
I cannot escape
From this disease I create
As my soul slowly dies
Of the irreconcilability of lies
And reality
And no matter how painful it becomes
My mind wanders
Farther from truth
And I can’t help but ponder
An alternative reality with you
Knowing, all the while
That I will fall like a child
Into the foreboding dark pit
And the torture awaiting me
Will carry on for eternity
My mind remembers but my heart forgets
My heart forgets