I am so tired, sometimes I feel so tired, I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. So tired. The pressure builds and builds. Seems like theres no release. The things I see go unnoticed by some. Fills my eyes with horror. Anger and guilt and frustration, and depression makes waking up every day harder and harder. I work my fingers to the bone just to survive. I got to get money so I can have a home. So I can breathe, eat and live in this society. I don’t even like money, and I got to work everyday just to feed myself. God it makes me sick. […]
Street Dreams:
I see the streets burn every time I fall asleep, I’m losing all my sanity. I can’t hide from the voice that speaks inside of me.
I see the trees burn along with all my memories, I’m losing all my sanity. I can’t hide from the voice that speaks inside of me.
Bullet:
My legs are dangling off the edge. Bottom of the bottle is my only friend. I think I slit my wrists again and I’m gone, gone, gone, gone.
My legs are dangling off the edge. Stomach full of pills didn’t work again. I’ll put a bullet in my head and I’m gone, gone, gone, gone.
Coming […]
“you put me through hell cause loving you is a war
I hope to God you’re happy, I hope that you had fun”
*Nothing’s Forever; Jamestown*
“Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness”
*How to Save a Life; The Fray*
“You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye”
*Say Something; A Great Big World*
“If love’s a fight, then I shall die,
with my heart on a trigger.”
*Angel With a Shotgun; The Cab”
“You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you”
*The Scientist; Coldplay*
“Til all my sleeves are stained red
I remember when I was a very little girl, our house caught on fire.
I’ll never forget the look on my father’s face as he gathered me up
in his arms and raced through the burning building out to the pavement.
I stood there shivering in my pajamas and watched the whole world go up in flames.
And when it was all over I said to myself, “Is that all there is to a fire?”
Is that all there is, is that all there is
If that’s all there is my friends, then let’s keep dancing
Let’s break out the booze and have a ball
If […]
I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.
For the past weeks I’ve noticed everyone smile and be happy, Lying to everyone and saying I’m happy so I will be explaining my feelins through these lyrics:
“Seems like the gods are punishing me
shackled in chains I just can’t Break free
Hands round my throat tighten the grip
bound by my sins so my wings have been clipped
I’m paying the price, I’m doing the time
serving my sentence for doing the crime
So show me the heavens or drag me to hell
my story is over i bid you farewell, I bid you farewell
now drag me to hell”
I did not write these lyrics BFMV did, its the easiest way to […]
Please, please, forgive me
But I won’t be home again
Maybe someday you’ll look up
And barely conscious, you’ll say to no one
“Isn’t something missing?
You won’t cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?
Even though I’m the sacrifice
You won’t try for me, not now
Though I’d die to know you love me
I’m all alone
Isn’t someone missing me?
Please, please, forgive me
But I won’t be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
“Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t […]
SP could use a little (relevant) Pantera…
“Getcha Pull”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjMDDN6MsPQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWiEqMAaMTM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgjCyNKimFU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDoNQTxxjP8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yKtqjkZpdA
(note: all of these have “lyrics in description” on the yt page, and i /recommend/ reading them)
(note-2: you may notice most of these are from the same channel; i just discovered this person’s channel, and it seems rather good, for this type of stuff)
I suppose i could/should have just made a playlist… oh well.
Do you have someone you know personally, or a role model/possible celebrity figure whose suicide or death you admire? Sometimes, I think of the deaths of others to help build up courage in the fact they could go through with it. You could either be inspired by the method itself or the components of their life surrounding the death.
For example: I often think of Gary Stewart who was a 70’s country singer from where I live. He had some good hits in his day, reaching the top of the […]
Did you choose what music will be played at your funerals ?
I want to make a playlist for mine.
I’m looking for songs with a “happy” music but with “sad” lyrics. Fool’s garden – Lemon Tree for example.
Do you have an idea for me ? And what do you plan for you ?
Some time from nowhere comes a shining light. some times, from the strangest places.  today is just another day,like any other . but a light shined inside my window today ,in the form of a little penguin who love to surf. and with the will and the faith and determination over came all odds.   the film was nice i smile and looked at myself , and listen to the closing song on the sound track and heard something strange in the  lyrics. Did i hear it right. I raced to the laptop and found the song and was in shock. to see and hear the words to this song .  It made […]
Lyrics to song I pretty much jus stayed up all night writing..
Oh and uh.. *All Rights Reserved*? haha.
* Rapped
When was the last time you breathed?
I mean honestly, fully, whole heartedly took a breath?
When was the last time you took a stand?
I mean verbally, viciously, fought for something you believed?
When was the last time you fell in love?
Fell so hard, you found yourself unwilling to even get up?
When was the last time you truly cared?
Thought about somebody else, not the person in the mirror
Self-centered, self-ish, but sophisicated
We pride ourselves in all the wars and the domination
But what’s the point in killing other beings created
Like ourselves? We’re just […]
“There’s something cold and blank
behind her smile
She’s standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won’t save her from herself”
I relate to these lyrics so well. Experiencing different drugs to escape from myself. But all the drugs in the world won’t save me from myself.
Before you Fade – MissCMF
© Copyrighted December 2012
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Let the light wash over you, don’t let it take you
The darkness is fine; it’ll be your friend
Out of the rotting corpse in this world
Only the pure ones clean ones have their end
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You might be scared; its path is whole and true
Keep to the path and nothing will happen to you
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Listen to the wolf cry, don’t be afraid
Nothing can hurt you if you don’t betray
Let you emotions flow out; let your soul be saved
Let the darkness take your soul, before you fade
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Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
Every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
All of these questions’ such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
I got out of bed earlier, made and poured myself a hot cup of tea.
As I stirred my tea gently and slowly, my mind began to percieve it as a pattern..sort of a beat.
Swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..swoosh..
Words began to play like a song in my head..in a really soft high-pitched voice
Sharp knives and blood
Like sugar and tea
Sweetly come together to comfort me
End the suffering now
turn out the lights
Death is not so bad
Take your life
Take your life
Take your life
Take your worthless life
This was replayed twice until I was jolted out of the lullaby by the sound my phone […]
funny thing is, i survived six years of heroin addiction. i think i miss the pain of the needle going in more than the opiates hitting my brain. something about pain and pleasure being inexorably tied together that makes one less real without the other. Was listening to Trent Reznor’s Hurt earlier and was struck by the truth of the lyrics
i hurt myself today….to see if i still feel….i focus on the pain….the only thing thats real
if i could start again….a million miles away…i would keep myself….i would find a way
it gives me a strange sense of comfort to think that after the deed is […]
but everyone I think that is suicidal or depressed, should listen to famous last word by my chemical romance. Mcr have got me through so much. But this song is special because of the lyrics, I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone. That song has gotten me through very hard times when I wanted to just end it and be reunited with my mom. So every one who feels depressed or suicidal should listen to that song. If not for you than for me. Please
Please just give me a Chan Marchall eulogy
If I was ever anything at all, it’s all breaking news to me
Breaking down in a rage, just to apologise
It’s really so strange watching all these strangers sigh
It feels like I’m living through my last days every day
On your strongest of days, you couldn’t make me feel any less insane.
Wish the ongoing theme about me, wasn’t “He’s just crazy”
Wish I knew safety
Wish nothing phased me
Wish I felt more than just feelings of unrest
Wish the darkness didn’t cloud me
Wish I wasn’t an emotional wreck
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I don’t think I’ll be able to relate to any song more than […]
“The Suburbs”
In the suburbs I
I learned to drive
And you told me we’d never survive
Grab your mother’s keys we’re leavin’
You always seemed so sure
That one day we’d be fighting
In a suburban war
Your part of town against mine
I saw you standing on the opposite shore
But by the time the first bombs fell
We were already bored
We were already, already bored
Sometimes I can’t believe it
I’m movin’ past the feeling
Sometimes I can’t believe it
I’m movin’ past the feeling again
Kids wanna be so hard
But in my dreams we’re still screamin’ and runnin’ through the yard
And all of […]
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