Today I feel like giving up everything and just going quietly. I’ve been in and out of jobs that are not worth the pay and my business doesn’t seem like it wants to take off. I am in debt and feel totally worthless as an individual. Everyone I know blames me for their problems even if I have had nothing to do with the source of their problems. My friends have been drifting away and I keep losing more (and don’t know why outside of trying to be supportive of the things that are going on in their lives). The girls I try to date just either end up telling me they want to be friends or just disappear all together.
Honestly, today, I feel like walking out on the property that my parents inherited from my deceased grandparents and just drowning myself in one of the creeks.
I just want to give up on everything that I’ve worked for the past 2.5 years since graduating college. Nothing else matters to me anymore. I just want to give up completely. Screw the time I’ve invested in Korean and Chinese. Screw the business. I can’t think anymore.
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Hey. The most valuable things in life are free. Then, you already know that don’t you. Because the things that you are losing are completely unrelated to your financial troubles. If they are, then they were not worth keeping. Life would be boring if there were no challenges and that’s exactly what being successful is; a problem solving excercise. Some of the most profitable companies and experienced business people have made a loss on a project. But how much would these people pay for an extension on their lives I wonder. I suggest you you, they would give up every penny and asset that they have. Something you should think about when you are standing at the edge of despair. I too have made the mistake of trying to project an image so that people like me. It shouldn’t matter how much money you have, when you examine it, it becomes apparent doesn’t it, that your high expectations and self imposed pressure was the only thing holding you back all along. Just let it go . Life is unpredictable, you know I kind of like it that way.
Could you walk out on the property that your parents inherited from your deceased grandparents and find another place to live? Maybe some place you can start over?
Emigrate to Spain