Happiness..

i haven’t been happy in so long.. i can’t even remember the last time i smiled. this girl keeps running through my mind her names kaylee. she told me to leave her a lone because i pretty much went crazy, i didn’t want to lose her but i did anyways and everyday i regret on me being so stupid and not listening to her. she told me to leave her a lone but it hurt so bad for her saying that to me, i just wanted to keep talking to her. i wanted everything to be how it was when i first met her. we never fought like that and got a long perfectly. i still don’t know why she did that to me and i don’t think i ever will find out. i keep thinking im a good person but when that comes up in my head it makes me feel like i’m nobody. i can’t believe i got called a stalker and a harasser, for me wanting to be with someone that i thought loved me. i wish i could talk to her.. i just want to hear her voice, even if its just a hi. i hope shes doing better in the world though, she deserves the best. for me i deserve to suffer for what i have done.