Hard to swallow

When I self harmed myself , I didn’t bare too think about how it would effect my family , or my friends . or even myself esteem . I know it was a miskate , but I don’t regret it . I did what I did, too let my pain go away , I tryed crying instead of self harm , never worked . & for a couple months I even burned myself , i also used too starve myself, but i loved food to much so id fail within maybe 10 hours . but self harming myself was a way too cope with my pain, my depression . But it didnt. The scars I have, i do not regret, but when I look at them, i see the hurt and pain that festered inside of me and that i dwelled upon in order for me to make those scars. Its extremely important to me to have people recognize that self harm is an issue. I know from first hand. Its sometimes a cry for help. Dont judge that person, show compassion. Thats what they need. And its not a sign of weekness, nor is it an attempt of suicide. Self harm is what kept me alive. It made me keep breathing. Im healed. Physically? Yes. Mentally? I will never be healed mentally from self harm. It is a huge part of me and my past. I’ve hope to never go back to self harm, but sometimes people fail , like me its natural for me to fail, especially too others .