I knew I was pregnant, at only 16 the morning sickness had made my day a living hell. No one knew, and I wasn’t old enough to buy Plan B. No one knew, not even my boyfriend. I’m sure my friend had figured it out. On top of having trouble in school with my severe A.D.D and having my mother threaten to kick me out, my abusive father, and having a rare form of Multiple Sclerosis (M.S) I was sure things couldn’t get much worse. So one night after everyone went to sleep.
I sat in the bathroom, watching the tub fill with steamy water. I was already drowsy from the six Benidryl and 4 asprin i had taken, I was dizzy standing up and my breath smelt of booze. I signed my name in sloppy cursive at the bottom of a note i wrote for my family and friends and threw the notebook at the door. I wiped away some tears and lowered myself into the bathtub. My head was throbbing and a clutched an exact o knife trying to catch my breath. I made a few shallow cuts before passing out.
When I woke up the bath water was cold and full of blood, I cut deeper than I thought. My body looked like a prune. I had failed. Now here I am, posting on here scared. Please. Help me. What do I do?
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See if you can find a counselor or doctor you trust. Don’t beat yourself up about anything. All you can do is deal as best you can. Enlist help, and there nothing shameful about the situation you’re in. You need to find someone who can help you through this situation. If you want some support feel free to email me pauld8981 at g mail dot com Good luck and take care.
Don’t give up. You decided you were mature enough to make the decision and have sex and as a consequence you got pregnant. Now you need to decided to be mature enough to handle it. Just don’t give up, please.