omg I hate drama and why is everything happening to me

I have a lot of cool people in my life and I’m trying my hardest to avoid drama and stay out of trouble but omg I’m stressed out and I’m not going to kill myself I’m going to have a stroke or a heart attack from all that’s on my plate. I started working every day and now I’m getting controled by an x lover and they have me by my balls and my hands are tied. On this one. I can’t wait tell I get off probation so I can start my life over and be with real people that can’t control me to the point I’d rather be dead. Than live like a dog that jumped his fence and is being hung by his leash. I’m trying to stay posative and not let it bother me but with 4 weeks to go to be a free person and having someone be and play deadly head games with me. I’m sorry I can’t play. Your not worth my time. Or my freedom your just a crazy girl and u don’t love me. So please don’t set me up or u will be killing me sooner than u know and stay away from me please. U chose this so u will be dealing with it on your shoulders when I can’t take any more. I can’t feel my left side of my body so I need to go and be with people that care about my health and servival. Sorry for venting and fyi I have to stay sober just incase I die of naturel causes (life insurance ) I am prepared and can’t complain about life. And I chose to live. But not like this