I’ve told my story once on here nobody commented so I thought screw this why do I post it anyway? I posted it because none of you knew me and hopefully some of you would understand hopefully some one will read this one.
A couple of weeks after I posted my story on here one of my ‘friends’ told the school counsellor that I had been cutting myself and she didn’t have the courage to speak to me about it. The counsellor kept asking why I did it, I never replied I told her I was stopping because at the time I wanted to. After two sessions I was finished with her, she said that I seemed like I was telling the truth and that I was stopping. That’s what I thought too.
I thought things where getting better after that I got a Boyfriend but he decided to dump me after a week saying I didn’t seem ‘enthusiastic’ about it and that we should remain friends but we we’re always together, we talked non-stop to eachother which was a lot for me because I don’t really talk much. And for him to say that to me really hurt me.
So those feelings came back the one’s some of you might get. I hated myself I kept remembering what went wrong. Everything I did seemed to turn out wrong  I keep telling myself not to start again but the feeling is too strong and I have no one else I can trust with this. I’m scared I dont want to start cutting again.
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just because you started cutting again doesn’t mean you are a failure, or that you’ll never get anywhere. Someday , you’ll get to where you can “be enthusiastic” again and not need to rely on cutting. Im still waiting for that day, but my therapist promises that if i worrk at it it’ll eventually come.
People due read each post that goes up here and I’m guessing most due sympathize/understand what wrote, but comments may not be posted to every post due to the flood of other post that visa up almost immediately after your goes up. People, even complete strangers like myself & others, loves to lend advice in times of crisis.
BTW: boyfriends are dumb generally speaking
Hope.u feel.better
Haha I feel a lot better now thanks!
I commented on your post.
Om shanti
There are different schools of thought on this and many on here might disagree with me but I am of the view that anyone who cuts shouldn’t get too emotionally encipher with anyone because if it goes wrong then….
First try and solve the anxiety/depression/whatever makes you cut or at least achieve some sort of stability before thinking about anyone else. Then again I’ve been saying that a long time and I would never want anyone to be like me and do the things I do.
I usually post but I’m not the authority on SP and everything I say is mostly nonsensense that never makes sense when I’m sober.
I sometimes think I would be a much better councillor than half of the assholes. I would always make time and when I say everything is going to be ok you had better believe it because I never stop until that happens.
Encipher is meant to be involved.
Your right, Duke, that’s why I advocate for finding a Mentor.
One person whom you can entrust your emotions but who isn’t a romantic partner.
This Mentor can help you achieve better relationships.
Peace
I read your story. Found it in archives, had to reset my password so I couldn’t comment for a while.
Don’t worry about failure too much if you can. Failures are the best! It is winners who bother me; they like comfort and never truly challenge themselves, because they hate to fail, they hardly try anything they are not good at. Your winnings go unoticed and uncelebrated. Every day you get up and fight the good fight is a HUGE win. The good fight is to help you know your spirit and be comfortable with who you are. This takes time…..sometimes a lifetime.