You dont understand how i felt that day when you grabbed my hand and assured me it was okay. I could do nothing but think about what we were about to do, wonder if you were nervous too. My thoughts overpowered everything and caused my brain to shut off. Then you took my innocence and whispered soft, “it wasnt how i pictured, wasnt how i planned.” I hurt my head trying to process what you had just said. Its been me by myself ever since then, my finger on the button ready to push send. I want to tell you all my feelings, worries, thoughts, and fears- everytime i try, though, all that leaves are tears.
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oh…very sorry to hear that….but please don’t lose yourself….i am sure one day he’ll understand you and your feelings…..so, cheer up!!!
I wonder in life, if those meant to be, are lost. And I wonder if they think that those around them are their true halves. And I think that those who love, wish to see their halves, they need their other half.
I picture my half in her. I see it so clearly. I dream of it, I wish to nurture it, cultivate it. But if only I could see I would tell myself that she is not who I look for. But maybe if I give her another chance………….
I cry the same dream you do at night. Your tears fall with mine. We deserve better, and yet, we want them.
I wonder if those who are lost, who are lovers that have lost their halves, will find each other. And I wonder, if we can endure their pain, what joy would it be to find love?