I’m ready to die. Fuck you those who are in power. You evil scumbags will burn in hell!!!!!!! There is not one good cop who will turn his gun on the real enemy, his boss, the evil judge. You all can suck my dick and I will die in final victory. all your condemnations are in vain for I have seen the truth. You all suck dick. You all fail and are not worthy to judge. Sick fuckers you are.
Dear YHWY
You sickening god of Israel. You disgusting god, Jehovah. You are the abandoner, the cowardly god. Vile is you, you liar and supporter of selfish arrogance and faggotry.
There is no justice on the earth and you lay weak and feeble, defenseless against the persecutors of your people. What a laughable joke is read in your words of the Old Testament. You may have punished then, but now you exist only as an ink blot on pages of history. Over and over you punished, but none would listen. This is evidence of your lack of knowledge and lack of wisdom, your people are shameful, like you the god that created them.
You lead astray with your promising words, but fail to deliver. You gave supplications to hope, and followed up with great injustice, to those who cried to you for help. Where you promised deliverance, you turned away. Where you promised redemption, you made only lies. You are a liar god.
Many days I suffered greatly. Not one day left without agony, not one day without torment. I sought you young, for I suffered greatly at the hands of my family. You delivered me into their hands of cruelty and shame, but I continued on, and lived my life to the fullest. I kept your word close to my heart. I stumbled but found my way back, always in hope. I listened to your commands, and followed your guidance, but you kept forsaking me. You gave me a cruel father, but people to tell me to honor him. You gave me a shameful mother, an abandoner, but you said honor thy parents. I took your path at a young age, hoping for deliverance; I only saw more pain and misery to come, but I still wrestled with you. I would not lose hope.
Though my father and brother plotted to kill me, my mother I fought to protect. His bruising and breaking bones lasted only as long until I came along, all the while my heart cried out to you for help, none came. He was tearing me down and beating me up, violence against my mother, a brother who turned away in hatred. Still, I would not lose hope. I never hit back, yet I forced him to stop, and protected my mother as you commanded. I wrestled him into submission as a grown boy, but blows then came from my whole family, my community, and my government and did not relent, forevermore.
You vile, abandoning god! You took my families, my opportunities, my children, my loves and plowed them asunder. You did not help me. You showed me constant and grave injustices, disease, and the worst in humanity. I continued to not lose hope, so I pursued you with vigor. I creased the very edge of insanity, nearly losing my life to find you. I searched in all religions under the sun, to no avail. I toiled relentlessly. All teachings say your mercy, but I have not seen this. All teachings say you are just, but I have witnessed only your betrayal.
Instead of help, you heaped more injustice upon my shoulders. When I would not break, you came and broke me. Lies and more lies were revealed in your words. You promised and did not keep. You showed me evidence of the oath that you yourself broke. You are a god of broken covenant, a loser of the worst kind.
Then, after much death and torment, you ruined all my people in front of my own eyes. My generation was sincere and willing, but they you destroyed, and let live the generation before them, a generation of complete sinners and doers of evil. You gave the selfish generation everything, but stripped my generation bare. You ruined my friends over and over and over by giving us selfish disgusting pigs for mothers and fathers, but you killed my beloved, and turned away from our cries for help. You ruined the best of my generation, but then promoted the worst of the selfish demons.
There is no justice here, you persecute the innocent. You let demon possessed family lie and tell more lies and ruin me for their lack of morals and their evil intent. You made me a sacrifice unwillingly. You made my beloved stricken and see evil and place my face there and convict me wrongly by a person of great sin and selfishness. You utterly had evil men and women pursue me on a crazy person’s behalf, night and day, and threaten my life, and when I asked for your help, you delivered me into their hands. You had them rob me of my possessions, my integrity, my good nature and you supported them as they breathed out lies against me! You had me wrongfully convicted for the sins of another and let my enemies triumph over me with their wicked testimony that bares false witness.
You gave me the worst situation: Invaders and foreigners reign supreme in my land, persecuting me and my brothers, and my fathers and mothers do nothing to stop it. Even my sister despises me and tramples my life, all for her own contrived sense of ‘freedom’, and all the while selling her lustful images to fund her selfish lust for money and materialism.
I have walked the paths of sincerity, and I am despised. I witness the abusers, the cheaters, the liars, and the boasters proclaim their might everyday, and you have not listened to my cries for help. I spoke out against great evil but you do not see this as good. I can’t support a crazy god like this, one who is a trickster, a manipulator, and a devious schemer, then abandons his people in a time of need.
Oh God! Why did you forsake My People? They are greater to me than a sickening god! A disgusting god like you! I do not support a god of lies, corruption, hypocrisy, abandonment, faggotry. Where is My God of Truth, Justice, Good? Where is My Avenger of My People? Where is the Redeemer of My Inheritance?
I am but a man, whose last breath is ready to leave him. I have grown less afraid of your death. My hand, it wallows under the sickening sea, and I gasp for breath of life, only fingers do I reach for Heaven. I worked my brain to the bone and bled this blood and ruined this life for want of My People. I took upon this impossible task and dreamed the impossible dream and find myself in ruin. I did what You commanded of Me, but You have forsaken Me! I now threaten You for courage of My own, not yours, and I find My True God still stands straight and narrow, like a sword long forgotten.
You sickening hypocrites! You Christian leaders! Even now you support the ruiners of My People. You support the liars who call themselves Israelites, who call themselves ‘Jews’, but all the while you know who is true to God, and you plot against them, the true Israelites, the true descendants of Jacob. You sell My People down the river of non-violence, when it is clear that their sword that must rise and slay for righteousness. Your aim is only to confuse and stifle. It is now My God’s Aim to bare weapons AGAINST YOU!
To this God I pray, a God Violent for His People, ready to slay the enemy, here in, and abroad. A God of Truth and Justice, Longsuffering. A God of Righteous Vengeance and Retribution. A God of Redemption. A God of Final Victory.
This world is not ruled by God but by wicked men and from what I have read it is humans who have forsaken you.
I can feel your pain and know you need some to blame but be careful that you know who is really to blame.
If other than God to blame then it would have let me know. I did what was commanded and gave my life. God is the one that has foresaken me. I did the work. God failed, not me. I honestly can say that. Sorry you can’t understand.
Tell God to hand over the fucking power. HE (it) failed. I am the only one who can rule with compassion. Not God.
I hope ypu don’t think I was saying you should blame yourself. 🙁
I just don’t believe it is God fault there is so much suffering in life but even if we don’t agree dosen’t mean I don’t understand why you would feel that way.
Like they say you can never truly understand someone until you have lived in there shoes.
Sad is what the world feels. And this world will feel more and more sad as the years go by. You all will feel sad as hell cause you all failed and you all thought you were smart enough to comment. Sometime you should just stop and listen. Thanks.
Joel. I see one glaring word repeated over and over in your writings, “I”. You say you did everything God asked you to do and you got nothing or the opposite and then more I, I, I. What I see in your writings is an ass backwards world view of Christianity and the life that God asks us to lead. A life pleasing to Him is the life that He promises to bless not a life of “I”. The life based on “I” is clearly the life that Lucifer wanted. He did not say to himself, I want to live a life pleasing to my Creator so that I can gain the promises and blessings that He has for me. No, he said I will rise above even God Himself. That is where he made his “I” mistake and he was cast down to the earth. None of us have been dealt a life free of torment and injustice. That is what life nowadays is about. It is overcoming all of those tradgedies through Christ our Lord that brings about victory. Many people on this site, including me, have never felt comfortable in our on skin. We have never felt quite at home anywhere. This is why many people on this site contemplate suicide, even Christians. Do you have any idea why you have this feeling, of not being home anywhere? Because none of us were designed to be here. This is not our home, our home is with God. He designed us to be in communion with Him forever in the Garden. Sin changed all that. He also created us to do His will. When we give ourselves to AGod through Christ’s sacrifice we are to surrender our will totally and allow His will to be done through us. AAAThere is no room for “I”. Once you realize that life, true happy life, is about Him and Him alone will you or anyone else be able to really understand the “peace” that surpasses all understanding that only comes through a relationship with God through Christ Jesus. Try writing a blog or post and do your best to put more “Hims” than “I’s” and you will start to get the real picture of living a truely fulfilled life. Do as Christ did and place everyone else’s needs before yours and see the blessings of God pour out on you beyond measure. You are right about one thing, the Bible does not say specifically, “Thou shalt not commit suicide”. But, can you imagine any act that is more personally selfish than to end the life that God gave you and so prematurely and before God has finished His work in you. Suicide is telling our all powerful Creator of all that is, that he is not strong enough to handle your problems, that He does not love you enough to give you the chance to live a life both pleasing to Him and full of His blessings, that He gave a part of Himself to come and live as a mere man to feel our human pain and emotion so He could know and love us better. You may say it is not a sin because it does not specifically say it that way in the BIBLE, but I am here to tell you and anyone else reading this, that you are denying God’s sovereignty in your life and His ability to do whatever He wants, you would be denying that He is God. So, if you want God’s best you will need to starting putting God first, other’s needs next and the rest will come.
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I’m ready to die. Fuck you those who are in power. You evil scumbags will burn in hell!!!!!!! There is not one good cop who will turn his gun on the real enemy, his boss, the evil judge. You all can suck my dick and I will die in final victory. all your condemnations are in vain for I have seen the truth. You all suck dick. You all fail and are not worthy to judge. Sick fuckers you are.
Dear YHWY
You sickening god of Israel. You disgusting god, Jehovah. You are the abandoner, the cowardly god. Vile is you, you liar and supporter of selfish arrogance and faggotry.
There is no justice on the earth and you lay weak and feeble, defenseless against the persecutors of your people. What a laughable joke is read in your words of the Old Testament. You may have punished then, but now you exist only as an ink blot on pages of history. Over and over you punished, but none would listen. This is evidence of your lack of knowledge and lack of wisdom, your people are shameful, like you the god that created them.
You lead astray with your promising words, but fail to deliver. You gave supplications to hope, and followed up with great injustice, to those who cried to you for help. Where you promised deliverance, you turned away. Where you promised redemption, you made only lies. You are a liar god.
Many days I suffered greatly. Not one day left without agony, not one day without torment. I sought you young, for I suffered greatly at the hands of my family. You delivered me into their hands of cruelty and shame, but I continued on, and lived my life to the fullest. I kept your word close to my heart. I stumbled but found my way back, always in hope. I listened to your commands, and followed your guidance, but you kept forsaking me. You gave me a cruel father, but people to tell me to honor him. You gave me a shameful mother, an abandoner, but you said honor thy parents. I took your path at a young age, hoping for deliverance; I only saw more pain and misery to come, but I still wrestled with you. I would not lose hope.
Though my father and brother plotted to kill me, my mother I fought to protect. His bruising and breaking bones lasted only as long until I came along, all the while my heart cried out to you for help, none came. He was tearing me down and beating me up, violence against my mother, a brother who turned away in hatred. Still, I would not lose hope. I never hit back, yet I forced him to stop, and protected my mother as you commanded. I wrestled him into submission as a grown boy, but blows then came from my whole family, my community, and my government and did not relent, forevermore.
You vile, abandoning god! You took my families, my opportunities, my children, my loves and plowed them asunder. You did not help me. You showed me constant and grave injustices, disease, and the worst in humanity. I continued to not lose hope, so I pursued you with vigor. I creased the very edge of insanity, nearly losing my life to find you. I searched in all religions under the sun, to no avail. I toiled relentlessly. All teachings say your mercy, but I have not seen this. All teachings say you are just, but I have witnessed only your betrayal.
Instead of help, you heaped more injustice upon my shoulders. When I would not break, you came and broke me. Lies and more lies were revealed in your words. You promised and did not keep. You showed me evidence of the oath that you yourself broke. You are a god of broken covenant, a loser of the worst kind.
Then, after much death and torment, you ruined all my people in front of my own eyes. My generation was sincere and willing, but they you destroyed, and let live the generation before them, a generation of complete sinners and doers of evil. You gave the selfish generation everything, but stripped my generation bare. You ruined my friends over and over and over by giving us selfish disgusting pigs for mothers and fathers, but you killed my beloved, and turned away from our cries for help. You ruined the best of my generation, but then promoted the worst of the selfish demons.
There is no justice here, you persecute the innocent. You let demon possessed family lie and tell more lies and ruin me for their lack of morals and their evil intent. You made me a sacrifice unwillingly. You made my beloved stricken and see evil and place my face there and convict me wrongly by a person of great sin and selfishness. You utterly had evil men and women pursue me on a crazy person’s behalf, night and day, and threaten my life, and when I asked for your help, you delivered me into their hands. You had them rob me of my possessions, my integrity, my good nature and you supported them as they breathed out lies against me! You had me wrongfully convicted for the sins of another and let my enemies triumph over me with their wicked testimony that bares false witness.
You gave me the worst situation: Invaders and foreigners reign supreme in my land, persecuting me and my brothers, and my fathers and mothers do nothing to stop it. Even my sister despises me and tramples my life, all for her own contrived sense of ‘freedom’, and all the while selling her lustful images to fund her selfish lust for money and materialism.
I have walked the paths of sincerity, and I am despised. I witness the abusers, the cheaters, the liars, and the boasters proclaim their might everyday, and you have not listened to my cries for help. I spoke out against great evil but you do not see this as good. I can’t support a crazy god like this, one who is a trickster, a manipulator, and a devious schemer, then abandons his people in a time of need.
Oh God! Why did you forsake My People? They are greater to me than a sickening god! A disgusting god like you! I do not support a god of lies, corruption, hypocrisy, abandonment, faggotry. Where is My God of Truth, Justice, Good? Where is My Avenger of My People? Where is the Redeemer of My Inheritance?
I am but a man, whose last breath is ready to leave him. I have grown less afraid of your death. My hand, it wallows under the sickening sea, and I gasp for breath of life, only fingers do I reach for Heaven. I worked my brain to the bone and bled this blood and ruined this life for want of My People. I took upon this impossible task and dreamed the impossible dream and find myself in ruin. I did what You commanded of Me, but You have forsaken Me! I now threaten You for courage of My own, not yours, and I find My True God still stands straight and narrow, like a sword long forgotten.
You sickening hypocrites! You Christian leaders! Even now you support the ruiners of My People. You support the liars who call themselves Israelites, who call themselves ‘Jews’, but all the while you know who is true to God, and you plot against them, the true Israelites, the true descendants of Jacob. You sell My People down the river of non-violence, when it is clear that their sword that must rise and slay for righteousness. Your aim is only to confuse and stifle. It is now My God’s Aim to bare weapons AGAINST YOU!
To this God I pray, a God Violent for His People, ready to slay the enemy, here in, and abroad. A God of Truth and Justice, Longsuffering. A God of Righteous Vengeance and Retribution. A God of Redemption. A God of Final Victory.
Do you not think this is Satan’s world not God’s.
This world is not ruled by God but by wicked men and from what I have read it is humans who have forsaken you.
I can feel your pain and know you need some to blame but be careful that you know who is really to blame.
Jules xx
If other than God to blame then it would have let me know. I did what was commanded and gave my life. God is the one that has foresaken me. I did the work. God failed, not me. I honestly can say that. Sorry you can’t understand.
Tell God to hand over the fucking power. HE (it) failed. I am the only one who can rule with compassion. Not God.
Fuck God.
I hope ypu don’t think I was saying you should blame yourself. 🙁
I just don’t believe it is God fault there is so much suffering in life but even if we don’t agree dosen’t mean I don’t understand why you would feel that way.
Like they say you can never truly understand someone until you have lived in there shoes.
Jules x
Such a sad saying..
Sad is what the world feels. And this world will feel more and more sad as the years go by. You all will feel sad as hell cause you all failed and you all thought you were smart enough to comment. Sometime you should just stop and listen. Thanks.
Joel. I see one glaring word repeated over and over in your writings, “I”. You say you did everything God asked you to do and you got nothing or the opposite and then more I, I, I. What I see in your writings is an ass backwards world view of Christianity and the life that God asks us to lead. A life pleasing to Him is the life that He promises to bless not a life of “I”. The life based on “I” is clearly the life that Lucifer wanted. He did not say to himself, I want to live a life pleasing to my Creator so that I can gain the promises and blessings that He has for me. No, he said I will rise above even God Himself. That is where he made his “I” mistake and he was cast down to the earth. None of us have been dealt a life free of torment and injustice. That is what life nowadays is about. It is overcoming all of those tradgedies through Christ our Lord that brings about victory. Many people on this site, including me, have never felt comfortable in our on skin. We have never felt quite at home anywhere. This is why many people on this site contemplate suicide, even Christians. Do you have any idea why you have this feeling, of not being home anywhere? Because none of us were designed to be here. This is not our home, our home is with God. He designed us to be in communion with Him forever in the Garden. Sin changed all that. He also created us to do His will. When we give ourselves to AGod through Christ’s sacrifice we are to surrender our will totally and allow His will to be done through us. AAAThere is no room for “I”. Once you realize that life, true happy life, is about Him and Him alone will you or anyone else be able to really understand the “peace” that surpasses all understanding that only comes through a relationship with God through Christ Jesus. Try writing a blog or post and do your best to put more “Hims” than “I’s” and you will start to get the real picture of living a truely fulfilled life. Do as Christ did and place everyone else’s needs before yours and see the blessings of God pour out on you beyond measure. You are right about one thing, the Bible does not say specifically, “Thou shalt not commit suicide”. But, can you imagine any act that is more personally selfish than to end the life that God gave you and so prematurely and before God has finished His work in you. Suicide is telling our all powerful Creator of all that is, that he is not strong enough to handle your problems, that He does not love you enough to give you the chance to live a life both pleasing to Him and full of His blessings, that He gave a part of Himself to come and live as a mere man to feel our human pain and emotion so He could know and love us better. You may say it is not a sin because it does not specifically say it that way in the BIBLE, but I am here to tell you and anyone else reading this, that you are denying God’s sovereignty in your life and His ability to do whatever He wants, you would be denying that He is God. So, if you want God’s best you will need to starting putting God first, other’s needs next and the rest will come.