I don’t know why but today I felt hopeful and optimistic and confident.
And while the world has thrown some good social interaction at me today, I am bombarded with this crippling discouragement. In any other way, she would react like everyone else today, accepting! But no matter how many people laugh with me, or are nice to me today, she is mentally pushing me aside.
Why? Why can’t my good feelings be rewarded? I don’t want to be depressed again, and yet, whenever I am happy I become attacked.
I need help! I feel I’m in the inbetween, and I don’t want to drown again! Please don’t let me drown, I can see happiness on the horizon, but why is it moving away from me? I’m chasing the setting sun! Please, if I could have one thing, and one thing only,
Can it be, how it should be, happy?
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You can email me if it will make you feel better. I know exactly what you are feeling right now. It sucks. That’s all…it just sucks.
It does suck but try and hold on to the small positives you had today. Find any little positive thing to focus on – you can do it.