I hate my life… I’m currently 29 years old with no job, no money, no spouse of any kind, no career, no car, failed college, no friends, no hopes, dreams and goals for my life. I’m so sad. I live with my mom because I have no where else to go. The love of my life, we weren’t official but it felt real for 3 years, left me for one of my friends in July, 2011. I got fired from my old job in November 2011 and ever since then I cant seem to get a job thats willing to hire me. I been so depress  that literally my heart is pounding much harder then it should be, I was told by my doctor. I just quit smoking one week ago because I don’t want to suffer the pain it causes to me. But now I have a hard time breathing and might have a collapse lung. Even without all that physical illness I am still so hateful towards my life because of the emotional pain. I want to make a change but I just have no income to make life simply different. I have no where to go. No one to see. I just don’t know what I can do. I been like this since the start of 2012. I read this off another post “It’s my nature to concentrate on people and give them what they want. When I don’t get it in return I feel hurt and resentful.” and I this is how I am as well. Every day I think of killing myself because I’m just a waste. I don’t want to live but I don’t want to suffer as well. I am really sad. I hate my life. I don’t want to live anymore.
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Hey man I know that feeling, that nothing can get better. Well I should say I knew that feeling. Things can get better, and its not a matter of money, nor is it a matter of someone making it better for you. No only you can find happiness within yourself. I did man, and trust me its not as hard as you think. I suggest meditation, every day in order to reflect and find the root of your depression. If that’s not your sorta thing then you should try counseling, it could be a great starting point towards finding your happiness. Really man you just have to realize that you are the only one standing between yourself and happiness. Things can get better I promise you that.
Hey, don’t you see what a big chance you have? You can change everything and nobody holds you this time!
And you know what, you can only help the ones who appreciate your help, it works! You don’t owe anything now!
Good luck 🙂
thank you for your replies it means much more then u think. i wished i had real friends that encourage me like both of you. I’m just not motivated to do anything anymore. but you guys are great people and i hope the best for you both.
@davidjonnsonbelieve me man, I can identify with you I am in shit as well. Just like you I live with my mom, no steady income, no friends, no caring family. The only thing I have meaningful is an affair with someone who is almost twice my age for 7 years and now she gives me alot of bullshit because I have no money, she’s beginning to show me signs of breaking off.I have been scraping money to make my way through university and I am now in my final year, hopefully I will get a job and things can start to turn from there. GET KNOWLEDGE my friend, it is power, do like me and dig drains, mix cement, clean yards, wash cars to make that money to give you that chance in school to get all the knowledge you can get. Your situation is more drastic than mine but look at it this way YOU CANT GO ANY LOWER! all there is to go up! START by getting little odd jobs (legal ones that is) and accumulate funds to go back and this time to be a success! Forget the past, tomorrow is a new beginning, start by planning it out, and keep saying and believing you can do it.I have my demons to deal with as well and it aint easy but I just have to believe God will make a way