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Hard Time

I’m getting bad again

by sazzabrah 8/29/2013

written by sazzabrah

It all started on the 25/08/13,

I had just gotten home from drama eisteddfods, which I had been placing in really well and winning majority, my weekend was going great, I also for once had a boy that was interested in me! I know can you believe it me!. When I got home I started talking to that boy and he was having a hard time with his depression and I was helping him. And then it happened. I logged onto Facebook and I see a post in a secret group that I’m in, (my acting class) and it says that Sam Cannon has […]

8/29/2013 2 comments

8/20/13

by anonymous169 8/20/2013

written by anonymous169

I’m a 14 year old girl going into highschool and I basically hate my life. I’ve attempted suicide once with pills but I ran out. I self harm. Only 3 of my closest friends know I hurt myself and I’m afraid word will get around. I don’t want to be a freshman and have a harder time in school because everyone knows I hurt myself. I’ve went maybe a month the longest without hurting myself. I hurt myself because I feel useless. I’m not pretty or very smart or athletic or talented or rich. Those are the only things people care about. I’m fat. I’ve […]

8/20/2013 3 comments

Fucked up.

by yugi 8/18/2013

written by yugi

The title sums this up very well “Fucked UP” that is how I see my self and how my family and others view me a lot of the time, but we will get to that later. So im new to the site and just out of luck today before I made my final choice I decided to post a small post on here. For both advice and to see what others think. Im a 17 year old male who is: failing school (for two main reasons: one im lazy and two I view myself as stupid or dumb) I also have no job, no car, […]

8/18/2013 1 comment

alone

by Nolove 7/22/2013

written by Nolove

I have never had this feeling before. I have never been so sad that it physically hurts me. My chest hurts and I’m having a hard time breathing. I have never felt this alone. I’m completely alone. Alone with my pain.

7/22/2013 8 comments

First post

by ussmd 6/28/2013

written by ussmd

Where to start..
I guess with how I’m feeling right now. I’m doing awful. And by awful I mean I want to kill myself. I wish that sometimes I would get the guts to try it again. Or I wish I would have died the first time.
My boyfriend has depression as well. And when he is having a bad day he just goes home. (Normally he stays with me as we mostly live together) Like today he got off work early. I didn’t know what time because he never told me. He just said he was having a hard time and didn’t want to […]

6/28/2013 1 comment

alone

by kristink 6/15/2013

written by kristink

having a pleasant time high, home alone. i usually have better insight into me and my “distorted” thinking when i am under the influence. major insight of the day-i like being alone too much. i am having a hard time tolerating people. if i am around people i have to talk. and be fairly pleasant. after awhile i can’t keep the facade up-takes too much energy. easier if i just keep my mouth shut and smile. it has gotten to the point where i watch tv with the sound off. i read the subtitles. the chatter, the noise grates on me. what is going on […]

6/15/2013 1 comment

I’m a survivor

by MichelleJ 6/13/2013

written by MichelleJ

I’m a survivor.

A few people in this world, supported a few med pros who taught me how to survive. Last wweek I wanted a dr to put a bullet through my head, over something stupid. I was having a hard time getting through some proocedures. So the dr had to spend an extra five minutes which seemed eternal for me, making certain that I wouldn’t go home and die. A family member, one of about five or six who I trust and stuff the rest of ’em, was understanding, but also disagreed with me at the same time. At least she cared and wanted to […]

6/13/2013 1 comment

The day my father killed himself

by dbg 6/12/2013

written by dbg

On July 26, 2013, I will be sad, depressed, and all kinds of crap will be going on in my mind. Why? That day will mark the 3rd year that I lost my father to suicide.

My father was the most kindest mad you would have ever met. He would give his shirt off his back to a stranger. He use to tell me and my siblings and friends that “there is nothing wrong with being yourself.”

How can a man with such a big heart want to end all of that? And where was I when it happened?

I was about to take my last exam of […]

6/12/2013 5 comments

I Left Because

by sophie 6/11/2013

written by sophie

I realized that i was on the verge on bullying a member of this site. I know what it feels like to have a bad day and for some reason that day i just wasnt remembering. I gave someone a hard time for being a downer and I was ashamed. It really hit me when I noticed that when I have an especially bad day, any small event can push me over the edge. Everyday I browse this site looking for that person I bullied and I dont see their name. I can only hope that he’s left this site because he’s doing well and […]

6/11/2013 0 comment

from feelinglost

by feelinglost 6/6/2013

written by feelinglost

hi,

I’m new to this site. I was going through a hard time and subconsciously started to look at suicide related links, which lead me here.

I’ve had depression, bulimia and other illnesses like insomnia for about eleven years now. Although I tried and failed to commit suicide about five years ago, I’m generally a cheerful person and eight years with a good counsellor has lead me a long way.

I still have problems holding a job down, but the biggest blow is that the one love I’d been with for five years told me recently thatÂ he is marrying someone else. I have no choice but to respect […]

6/6/2013 1 comment

idk just venting

by ritsuka 6/5/2013

written by ritsuka

im having a hard time, i hate my self already… is it bad now that i hate my self even more cause i think its my fault that my very first love cheated on me…and no im paranoid and i think hes still cheating on me…i feel worthless…i feel like im nothing…im never gonna be good enough for anyone so whats the point…idk…anyone out there who can help….im just so ugly…inside and out…..idk i just idk what i need….i’ll take advice i just need help…i want this stress, anger, depression, sadness, i want it all to go away and i will do anything to get […]

6/5/2013 5 comments

I never had a choice

by Ravyn 5/28/2013

written by Ravyn

I never asked to be born. It’s not like I was given much of a choice. I didn’t choose my parents, my house, the schools I went to or the country in which I live. I’m just here. And everyday it becomes harder for me to accept that. It’s not my fault that I see the world the way I do, or that I hold such feelings of hatred for it. Nothing would make me happier than to see it and everyone in it burn. But no amount of me hoping, ranting or dreaming of that is going to make it happen. So I give […]

5/28/2013 10 comments

Discovery and Shame

by MoiBelle 5/12/2013

written by MoiBelle

I have stumbled across this site on accident and after looking over it all night and then joining, I am so grateful to have found it. I’ve been needing to talk to someone for a long time (decades, really). I realized I am scared to share it on here, also. No one will care (even though I know that here is the most probable place I will find like minds), it will be too long (because it is, indeed, an extremely long story and would probably have to be done in increments), because even though my problems ARE severe, I am fully aware that many […]

5/12/2013 2 comments

Night terror

by SadSteve 4/26/2013

written by SadSteve

Some nights when I am having a hard time falling asleep, I finally get there and I awake suddenly. Â In that split second when I open my eyes in the dark of my room in the middle of the night I feel like I have seen and felt death. Â I feel its nothingness, I see it’s darkness. Â It scares me and I notice my heart is pounding and I remain spooked for several minutes before finally sleeping, like a baby.

4/26/2013 0 comment

For the ones who need someone…

by SkullGold 4/16/2013

written by SkullGold

Instead of commenting on some posts, I found it easier to put it on a post itself so everyone could see it. If someoneÂ is passing through a hard time and needs someone,Â I’ll be there, and I promise. I’ve already passed through it and I know how hard it is to find someone who actually cares about you and is sincere about that, but I am.Â So if any of you have trust on someone who can help you, contact me. I’m a female teenager, and you can find me oftenly on Kik Messenger (username: Skullgold) and e-mail: jujumgebara@gmail.com

Thank you.

PS: I hope SP doesn’t […]

4/16/2013 0 comment

Lost Souls

by highway66 3/30/2013

written by highway66

Im 19, A few years after I was Born my parents divorced and my mom and I moved away from the big city to a smaller city not to far. The divorced didnt effect me much because I was so young but it showed in my mother and she began to drink a lot.

by the time I was in grade 3 I was very unhappy with life, There was rarely any food to eat in the house and I was in a very abusive relationship with my mother. I was regularly running away from home and staying with my grandmother who lived in the same […]

3/30/2013 4 comments

giving up

by givingup_ 3/14/2013

written by givingup_

So lately I’ve been feeling like I’m useless..it feels like everything I do is not good enough. I just want to leave this world. I think It would be better without me here. I need someone to talk to but I have a hard time opening up to people. Last time I opened up to someone they showed me why I don’t open up to people. I’m tired of crying every night. I just want to end the pain. I’m hurt, depressed, angry. I just want it to all go away. Everything is tooo much. I’m 15 in highschool and im failing all my […]

3/14/2013 4 comments

Secrets

by The_Wallflower 3/8/2013

written by The_Wallflower

Over the years of my life people have trusted me with their secrets. Their own stories. Just holding them can put stress on a person, so I decided to share them with whoever is willing to read. I will not use names nor describe the physival apearance of that person.

First, a friend of mine had told me that her mother had been raped during the summer of 2012. She told me it was by someone very close and she is still going to therapy. Although she is recovering from the whole experience, she is making progress. She was not afraid of speaking up (which is […]

3/8/2013 1 comment

just a peom

by rayderrick 3/7/2013

written by rayderrick

each morning and evening my thoughts are seized in belief that by finding a reason you became so decieving this pain will ease,and the pressure on my chest relieved making it easier to breathe which is necessary for all human beings

However all the countless calls the miles Ive walked staring up and down the walls have taught me to not expect you to catch my falls but yet you stand beside and watch me crawl

a tiny hole in my heart begins to tear bringing back minutes, moments and memories of dispair. There were times I had nowhere to go and still you left me there […]

3/7/2013 0 comment

by damaged642 2/23/2013

written by damaged642

Two years ago a girl i knew commited suicide. no one saw it coming and at first i didnt beleive it i couldnt beleive it. she seemed so happy all the time. we were really close friends but we had a falling out. She changed a lot but she still seemed happy and everyone who knew her loved her. i didnt beleive it at first when they told me. i was angry i thought she was so selfish for doing it i hated her for doing it. i had thought about it a couple years earlier but i didnt. so how dare she? now after […]

2/23/2013 3 comments

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