Nice title right? Sure as hell got your attention. No its okay scroll on to someone with real problems. As I can see nothing here that gets real attention is personal. It’s simpathetic stories about vague topics. Want that??? I don’t care Bout being “popular”… But there are some real fucked up thoughts in my head I’d more then gladly be willing to share. I know people would be interested to know what goes on in the head of a morbidly depressed 16 year old with 1st world problems on the outside and destructive problems on the inside. What you could witness.
Why I hate people, value on human awareness, suicidal thoughts, my thoughts on suicide, self torture, why I’m so fucked up. I know it may not seem like it cuz no one wants to read a long post but I have a self propelled vision on this world that I would love to share.
Comment anything at all if you would want this when I have normal days. Comment a topic u would like me to cover if you think debates are radicall. I’m open to discuss anything.
It only takes one for this to happen.
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I’m living in isolation right now.
Tell us, man. You’re in decent company. We understand, at least. I’m 21 and I think about killing myself and probably many others daily. I think I’ll set myself on fire at some point. Right now the only thing that keeps me going is my family; they’ve only ever shown me love and I don’t want to hurt them. But I never asked to be born.
Sometimes I pick out some random fucker on the street and just think about murdering them. I don’t know why. Anyway, you were telling us about how fucked up you are…?
It helps sometimes to type it out.
Your title is really interesting (not to undermine the rest of your post) could you tell me what you mean by it?
Stupid brains with the fucked up stuff are annoying. I find rape and arson enjoyable and I think about murder pretty much as often as I think of suicide. I have a child who was conceived accidentally. His mother is mentally ill just like me. I wonder what kind of unpleasantness lives in his brain. I don’t feel I would be a good influence so I don’t talk to him.
What kind of muck lives in your brain.
I don’t know what to say other than I get it. First world problems on the outside, destructive on the inside. Makes you feel stupid that you have nothing tangible to account for your pain but it’s there. It’s your wiring that’s the problem. Not exactly something most people even believe is real. How can you tell anyone about your illness when all you hear all day is how it’s a crock and people need to quit bitching and suck it up. Well I am. Every fucking day I get out of bed that’s exactly what I’m doing. It wouldn’t matter one bit how popular, or rich, or beautiful I was; because I just don’t care. It’s all just very bleak looking out my eyes.
I hope your morbid depression is of the malleable kind – turn it into something interesting.
@john.doe I thought for several years I was inferior to half the human race. I lived for several years in isolation, I was suicidal and planning to commit suicide – and still am. It was a shame because in the past when I was planning to kill myself I saw someone perfectly fine and felt I needed to accomplish something before I died but the horror I endured in the past was pushed my soul over the edge to take my life, pushed me to kill my body as my spirit has been killed. I am very self-critical and blame myself for most of my problems, even though they were caused by other people I still blame myself for not making any attempt to stop others from killing me, perhaps because it’s easier to think it was my fault and I could’ve prevented it.
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What do you mean by “suicidal awareness”?
“But there are some real fucked up thoughts in my head I’d more then gladly be willing to share”
Why dont you? Lots of comments which invite you to share. If you dont care whether you get attention “popular” in your words, then just do it!