and by that is, apparently it’s highly rare for anyone to have common sense anymore… Why am I always the only person around anyone I know to have the common sense to think something through, to see the solutions to do what’s right, but no one listens to me… In this world full of lies, and currupted greedy bastards, I still stay truthful and pure… In this world, all those horrible people continue to get rewarded, while I’ve never seen a day where I’m not punished… for what? for existing? for being right? for being honest? for being hard working? for having humanity?! all the fuck for what?! just so you can all make me lose my sanity? is that what you want? do you all really want me to go on a murdering spree, because from where I stand, not a god damn forsaken one of you deserve to even fucking exist… after all the help I’ve given, I’m back-stabbed, and used, after all the advice I’ve shared from pure experience and logical reasoning, I’m spat on, told I’m useless… what?! am all I really good for is to constantly get raped?! ABUSED?! OVER USED?! In a world full of shit and lies, how the hell do you continue to expect me to stay? because once the cup is overflowing with those shit and lies, there’s no where left for me to float but out over that edge, or drown… and then what will I be good for?…
What’s funny is, in this world, common sense makes you a fucking genius… it’s sad, because being smart doesn’t get you anywhere either… no one cares, unless you’re heartless, no one cares unless you affected them negatively… and here I stand refusing to be anything like the rest of you… and still… none of you care…
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If you know too much, you are forced to pay for it: The more you know, the more your soul is killed.
I like what Deepak Chopra says…”What anyone else thinks even if it’s about us, is none of our business”. It just confuses you when you focus on what other people are doing, or trying to ascertain their thoughts & we have no control over others thoughts. The good thing is their thoughts have no control over you so why waste your energy being negative about something you will never change…you can’t get angry or upset enough about it, so why not go a different route and use you brilliant mind to focus on you in a way that allows you to feel good by thinking good thoughts about you and being gentle with yourself. What’s interesting is we hate to see someone physically harmed, even animals but the abuse we give ourselves in the way we relate internally is unbelievably harsh & cruel…I laugh at myself all the time cause of how hard I used to be with myself. The world situation is only symptomatic of the individual situation.
Cheers!
It’s true, often we are our own worst enemies.
Tormenting ourselves with a voice in our heads, our voice.
Learning to laugh at your own inner voice helps to quiet it, if only for a moment.
Good luck
I used to be helpful and unselfish for others who were greedy and selfish too … and got walked on, stepped over, passed by and shit on more times than I could count … until i realized to recognize WHY they were asking for my help … it’s not 100% but when you pay attention to others actions with other people and see how the act BEFORE they make it around to using you then you can make a determination as to their worthiness of your time and effort.
I once helped a ‘friend get a temporary job at a company i worked at … I was working a temp job too … I’d been there for almost a year. then when a permanent position opened up, i thought for sure I’d be the one to fill it … but my friend, the person I selflessly helped got it over me … so the next time my boss asked me to ‘find someone’ to fill the now vacant temp position … I simply said “gee, I don’t know of anyone off hand … but I’ll ask around. The day after I FINALLY was hired to a permanent position … I conveniently “found someone” to fill that position … who also eventually got a permanent position … the moral is … secure yourself and your situation first … it’s not selfish to take care of yourself before others … it’s your duty
You can’t “save” a drowning person if you’re drowning yourself … first get your own life jacket … THEN save the others.
lessons dawg
I feel just this way, i look around and i swear im living in a different reality from everyone else, going about their lives clueless to whats around them, no integrity, everyone backstabbing and destorying people around them, other people, people who could be just like you, but no one can be assed to take the time to find out.
I stay true to what i belive, but im yet to find it beneficial