my friend knows about this site and read all my posts..hes trying to help tho..which im thankful for…hes a good friend and i take him for granted and i shouldnt do that…. ugh.. my family is a pain..the other day at lunch my sister was like “i think she’s bulimic and anorexic, she never eats” the thing is i actually am… ugh i wanted to cry… fucking life sucks…
i need help.. i know i do.. i hate admitting it tho… i had another nightmare lastnight… about me being locked in a white room, nothing else in it but me.. i went insane… i hated it… ugh… why is life so hard? i feel like im going insane!!!!!!!!!!fuckidy fuck fuck…. uuuggghhh i wanna die!!! my sister had been bad lately.. hitting and yelling at me.. for a while it stopped.. i kinda knew it wouldnt last.. wish i was wrong…im still on the waiting list for therapy.. summer’s soon.. my first year was ruined by depression, and my summer probably will be too.. ughh… i wanna sleep forever but still be able to talk to one person.. the person in my life i really need, he doesnt really know this tho.. i wish he did… i love my bestfriend.. haha ugh.. i want him…
-RawrImaTurtle….
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I hear ya…any time anyone focuses negatively on you/anyone it only proves to exacerbate the issue you’re dealing with & doesn’t help. If people responded opposite to their inclination, it would be such a help. What ‘is’ doesn’t mean squat, cause things can always change when you choose to feel better and expect and demand that you feel better…about everything. For me, I thought that therapy helps but it’s more that I had someone who I thought cared & listened to me get my emotions & thoughts out.
I’ve experienced some really good dynamics talking & coaching people. If you want to skype, let me know. We could chat once or twice a week if you feel it would be of support to you. Whatever feels right for you. My id is softsoul9 All the best!
thank you. i’ll add you on Skype, and thank you. i know what you mean.
ok, got it!