Who am I fooling?
This week has been messed up. No exams for most of it been at school to forget the stress at home. Playing with my friend and we just started kissing….and intense. AM I THAT MESSED UP? Now we are together but i know it will not last…..she will abandon me like everyone else. She makes me smile (havent done that in months) but two girls together in a catholic school….I HAVE GONE MAD it cant work!!!!!!!!!!
15 comments
Hi SBK, I’m glad you have a smile, it can help to write down how your feeling or posting here. I dont believe there is anything wrong with you for having feelings another girl, Just because of the school your in. Stay strong and think positive. by staying positive you may keep her around you and being friends or more. Hold your head high and dont worry about what others think. of course some may not agree but just go with it. you never know right. take care.
LB
Its not just the school…..I was born into a catholic family…..They are all its wrong and i am the devil child and then she thinks I am the devil child for living in a catholic home….Its like being between a rock and a hard place.
I dont know which way to go…..to be what my family wants or to be happy?
If I am happy I will lose my family again…….and if i have my family ill never be happy.
My strength is gone and I can never think positive there is always the big WHAT IF!
Some choices we have in life aren’t easy, this is one for you. my best suggestment for you tho is to sit down with your family and just explain to them these are your wishes. tell them it may just be a faze you are going through and you may grow out of it. you just want to try as it will make you happier to try what could have been than to wonder what could have been because you didn’t try. Keep fighting, there will be a compromise in the middle somehwere. stay strong!!
LB
They dont want to listen…Ive tried talking to them…and I quote “If you go that way I can not support you just love you from afar because you are not bringing down your brother and sister with you” the words said to me by my mother. When I was with a boy they had problems and now that I am bi….THE WORLD IS AT A STAND STILL!
Give it time to let things settle a bit and try talking to them again. sometimes parents respond in fear before they really understand and respond negatively. It sux, it really does. just try and keep the peace for a few days and try again, thats the best i can think of. you can do it!!
LB
Plus I am beaten for the simpliest things so one more year in high school then i can leave
Been disown one too many times now……rarely talk to my parents nowadays plus failing school ha….they kill me b4 i can blink
You are like sooo positive???
Whats your story?
my story, been through hell and back my whole life. On my third decade on this planet one i’ve tried to exit moer times than anyone cares to know. i’m still stuck here, stuck in this body, can’t get away from my mind. it follows me everwhere. I like to think positive it helps me get through things day to day. i can feel i’m starting to go down hill again, it sucks. Me helping others on here keeps my mind busy away from my own thoughts. keeping my mind busy helps me for the most part. that my story, at leat the short form. lol. I keep on trucking along, one slow stride at a time.
The less i think about the hellhole called earth, it comes back in my dreams and haunt me. Suicide in my country is a low rate so there is not many ways to try. My dancing is what helps me i have been do it since i was 2 it the only that remain normal in my life.
if you dont mind me asking where is it you are from? at least dancing helps to keep you going, some people feel as if they have nothing to preoccupy there mind.
LB
The beautiful island of Jamaica(that i am not allow to enjoy)
They say canada is to nice and beautiful and people are so pleasent and kind. i dont see it either. i’d like to move to a differnt country honestly but i’m thinking my thoughts will follow me. i’ve thought about hitchhiking down to argentina just for something to do, an adventure i like to call it and see what happens from there lol. who knows tho. differnt people, walking for miles upon miles, legs feeling like rubber i’ve walked so much, might keep my thoughts busy on other things lol.
Sounds good…..just might work. But I stuck down here but I guess when I am free I’ll have some fun
Thats the plan, glad you are seeing the positive side of things 🙂 it all takes time, nothing changes 100% over night. if only tho….
Have to try…right 🙂 even tho its hard