i just dont see anything anymore
i had goals i had a future i had hope i had a purpose but thats the problem i fucked up and now im lost i dont know what to do i tell people what i used to see they respond that i should give up not litterally though cuz i have no nerve fuck yeah actually i do i can picture death so vividly it makes me want it more painless and free yes damn thats all i want i wanna be done im already dying externally i just need to be dying internally i want and wish and live and dream but really all for what? to be treated the way i am and in return think the way i do? its just not worth it i understand people love and care bout me but i dont know anymore…i have more haters then lovers i can say:/ i dont like bein hated i want everyone to want me and need me!!!
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I read your post. I also read your username. Maybe that’s your problem. You gotta stop faking it.
ok well my username fakingit means i fake happiness so others cant see my sadness i try to come across as the happy girl who has everything, other then that im honest about everything else.