why? i just want to give up. be dead. im sick of pain i have felt it enough. im miserable, i cant sleep, im too stressed to do anything. i wanna end this forever take me on a free vacation to peace. i am on my last nerve to just do it tonight get rid of the pain and set me free. yeah i should do it tonight i stalled last night and ended up being miserable til 3am i dont want to do that again:/ i wanna do it NOW.
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I’m sorry you feel that way. I’m sorry that I feel the exact same way. I would do it too if I wasn’t scared of the pain, or even knew how I wanted to go. I keep waiting for something in my life to change and set me on a different path, but this imaginary event never happens. And I’m in store for a night similar to what describe–just sitting up till the wee hours in pain.
Why can’t you do it? Because there is life left to live. Because you could be the next billionaire, or whatever it is you want to do. Because your life could bring something better to the world. Because there are people out there who care about you. I know these are all cliche but sometimes cliches are good. Sometimes they aren’t, but just think about them for a while.
@theForgotten-who cares bout me like in my post who cares? no one cares bout me, but idk i feel like i really have to die now:/
I don’t know, I’m pretty sure some people on this site would be sad to see you go though, looking at how much you post. I know how terrible this shit is. Give yourself just a little more time.
@fakingit
Hey Fakingit if you have Skype contact me Danyiel.Arkady
But if not I’ll tell you why. Im a person that flat line and came back and was deeply depressed and suicidal. And those were my earliest memories. Why can you do it? Because theres a horrible truth that people like us fear. And that fear is not know what could have been. Because deep in side we dream of a happiness that is so achievable. Despite the fact we are going through so much pain and suffering we still have that tiny bit of hope for something more beautiful. Thats the true. And you know what, I care. Because I know what it feels like to be alone to not want to live, so that why Im reaching out to you. If you ever wanna talk contact me , what do you have to lose. Keep your head up no matter how hard the fight may get.
maybe, but still i feel like cuz i posted yesterday i want to and am going to do it i have to or i just look stupid its a guilt thing and for all the shit in life i wish it was possible for me to die of crying cuz if that were so id be dead cuz thats all ive done for the past four days:/
People understand you here. People wether they know you or not care about you. Take sleep medicine or something to help you. Try to think of the good things in life
Trust me, no one looks bad at you because you didn’t kill yourself. You don’t look stupid for that. I know, I wish death was that easy. It sucks but usually, things get better, work themselves out, it might take a while, but still, its usually there.
@theForgotten-but i look bad at me for it i have to for one to put me at peace and second to prove to everyone im serious about death
@darkwillow-maybe people care i would hope they do i just dont believe it im banned from medicine my parents locked the cupboard of medicine after they found out i took half a huge bottle of nyquil for no reason just to drink it a good thing in life-my bf who in a good way makes me feel like a horrible gf
You should hide the medicine somewhere
i should tomorrow i think il hide some bottles in my room.
I know its hard, but don’t look at yourself like its bad, look at yourself as strong for getting through. I understand you want to be at peace, and I understand you don’t want to wait, but peace will come to you, a form of it anyway, if you stay in this life.
im happy for pulling through im upset cuz i say oh im going to kill myself and then back down its like if i said it i must follow through and act on it and peace may come i just dont wanna wait i want it now that or i wish to be done with the fucked up world
@last train-thank you and i dont have skype, but what u said is completely true. i should keep trying. i will.
Having been in a bad place many, many times, I look back now and see why I was never able to do it. My job wasn’t done yet. No – I am not a holy-roller. But I do believe that every person has a purpose. What is yours? If you take your life, you will never know. Be strong, and work towards solving your issues one day at a time. It seems like a mountain if you look at the big picture. Today’s step – make it small – thoroughly enjoy a funny movie. Tomorrow – hug someone who is having a bad day. One day, you will look back and see all that you would have missed.