Clearly you have people who care about you in your life, your friend wouldn’t have given and lent you money if they didn’t. Bullying in the work place is the worst and nobody should have to deal with that. Crappy jobs will come and go, plus what would be the reason in staying in a crappy job if it makes you unhappy? Money isn’t the be all and end all you can find ways of getting money, I don’t know what country you are from but I’m sure there is some form of welfare state there or government help you could take. You say you don’t like taking money and being a burden but, since you have actually worked, you’ve actually paid into the system so think of it as collecting your own money. You’ve taken a knock and a you’ve been let down so take some time to find yourself and decide what you want, another job will come soon.

But your friend will not see it that way, they will have seen it as spending money to keep someone they cared about from leaving on the street or from having to live without food. Physical pain could be what is currently blurring your perception of life and your mood. Try and do things to take your mind off the pain, watch a film or try and focus your mind on something else. It sounds like stupid things but they do help believe me.

Pain in your legs is so annoying and stressful, it stops you from being able to function properly as you can’t really walk or move comfortably. I’m not sure what type of pain you have in your legs, so this may not help, but try an ice pack on the pain to numb it and keep it elevated. I dislocated my knee years ago and get incredible pain there a lot. There really is no need to feel guilty, your friend would not have given you the money if they had not wanted to, they care about you and your well being not money. These are problems that a lot of people go through. The way you deal with it is what makes you grown, a bigger idiot would have refused the money and tried to solve their problems on their own. You aren’t a child or an idiot though, a lot of people have been in this situation and dealt with it in this way so if anything you are like a lot of adults who have been forced into this awful predicament.

This does happen to other people, but most other people don’t have the strength to stop the situation. You did so you can’t be weak, you might think that walking out on work was weak but it is the opposite! Most people try and get on with the situation where as you realised you couldn’t do it any more and that takes strength. I wouldn’t say it because of your mind, I’d say it was more because you are a nice person. Most people who are intelligent get treated like that, people are scared by intelligence. But due to the fact that you have been put down so much you don’t feel that way. Hopefully you getting out of that places and job will change that situation. There really is no need to say thank you

There really was no point in staying at a job you hated, especially since you were being threatening and bullied, that really is no way to live. Whilst you might not know anybody in another town or city it may be a good idea to get away from where you are. You can now start to put this ordeal behind you and work towards something that you want and will make you happy

People don’t always understand the situation that is the problem. Most people just presume that people say things like that as ‘banter’ and are only ‘kidding around.’ It stops becoming that when you feel actually threatened and scared. If the person doing this realise that you feel that way, which I’m guessing they do, then the ‘banter’ will stop. That really is the problem here they don’t understand that you genuinely feel scared and that you believe these are no longer jokes but they are serious threats.

My suggestion would be don’t go back to work, especially if you genuinely feel scared and have talked to your boss about it and tried to rectify the situation. People don’t understand certain situations so try to tell them that you genuinely feel scared and worried, they will understand if you hel them to understand

venting on here the past few days has helped me out tremendously