First let me say I practice remaining silent regarding my problem with suicide.
I have a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Both of them know why I attempted
suicide last year. The thing that I hate is I still feel suicidal. It doesn’t go
away. My suicide attempt last year was an overdose of Flurazapam and Tylenol. I
woke up two days later with a tube in my throat. The ICU report says I was in
critical condition. I’m 57 tears old. I have 5 children and 7 grandchildren. I’m
recently divorced. My credit is ruined and I’m hopelessly in debt. I’m a
teacher. I make extra money tutoring and home teaching. It’s not enough. My
fears are compounded by my situation. It’s overwhelming, it doesn’t seem like my
life.
I’d like to thank the doctor for the words “That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal.”. For a long time I felt guilt because I attempted suicide. SURE ENOUGH SOMEONE WILL TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY AGAIN…
I have to stop now. If I write any more I’ll end up not sending this.
Thanks…