Hello.
I left for a while thinking it would make me feel better. It didn’t. I managed to lose all of my (few) friends recently. All completely my fault. Nights are extremely hard. I can’t get away from myself, I have no one to confide in, and I figured out a few depressing things about myself. Enough to keep me up at night.
On the bright side, I lost forty pounds in something like 7 weeks. Probably a bit unhealthy, but I really don’t give a shit.
I’m fully prepared for suicide, and will do so without fail when the time comes. I guess I’m just waiting. I’m sort of taking things minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. I haven’t been able to cut because I have a physical coming up, and I don’t feel like explaining fresh cuts to a doctor and getting locked up for it. I can’t afford another setback. I’m getting off the drug that makes me tired and staying on the one that’s given me an eating disorder. Quite pleased about this. I know nobody gives a fuck so I should probably shut up about myself.
Does anyone know if WillTickin is still, you know, here? I royally screwed things up with him and I really need to know if he’s okay.
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I give a fuck. haha. I mean, I care. No, it’s not healthy to lose 40 pounds in 7 weeks. You’re probably doing considerable damaged to your body not eating. I also lost 40 pounds, but it was within a year, I think. Wasn’t really healthy either, though. I lost half of it through starving myself because I was too depressed to eat. The other half was exercise. Anyway, it may be good you came back here if you have no one to confide in. Now you have many people to confide in. I just talked to WillTickin on the 19th, I think, so I’m sure he’s still here. I doubt he attempted since then.
I know what you mean about being too depressed to eat. Been there. I’m glad you’ve heard from him. I would pry more but I got my answer, so thank you.
You’re welcome. Hm, I don’t really want to talk about him, but you could always search his name in the comments and find out that way.
Thanks for that, I forgot about searching comments.