So glad to have discovered this site.
I think about dying all the time & when I hear that someone has died, or has a terminal illness, I am so jealous. I know this is wrong but I can’t help it. Passive suicidal ideation.
I have made so many mistakes in life, probably due to depression. I so desperately want to turn back the hands of time but know I can’t. It tears me up most of the day, everyday.
I want to go but can’t do it to my family. Then, I think of how I can plan an “accident” but don’t want any chance of survival.
Anyway, if you have gotten this far, thank you for listening.
xxxx
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if you ever want to talk you can to to my tumblr ( inevitable-nightmare.tumblr.com) and we can talk privately…
Oh for the perfect accident! Preferably one with a great insurance payout.
Welcome to SP I hope you can find some comfort and understanding here. I’d love to talk more if you want wolfhomepup@yahoo.com