With all the things in life there are to hate and to make us so profoundly sad, love shouldn’t be one of them. It has always been a mystery to me. For some people love is a reason to live. Sharing love with that special person makes everything else worth it. Â It breaks through all the bullshit and gives them the strength to handle anything.
For the rest of us it is elusive. The ones we love will never love us. We are the constantly lonely and chronically untouched. Love is painful. It reminds us of all the things we’ll never have and we’ll never be.
I now have the date. It will be the last day I spend wondering what one kiss could have changed.
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I could never feel any attachment to anyone or anything that didn’t feel the same way. Anything else and your asking for problems.
This is beautiful.
Have you ever thought of writing poems? Your talented as a writer.
Hey Devin,
Well heartbreak is powerful, isn’t it? That’s what the best love songs are about. Most art is about these moments when your guts are ripped out. All the most amazing people have been through it. It’s kind of a basic human experience rather than a rejection of you. Man look how much Adele is making from that!
Also you can love a person separately from what they give you in return. And that’s the most powerful kind of love. Give yourself distance to heal.
Hi Devin. I’m sorry to hear you’re feeling like this. I think Ips’ comment is spot on though. This is a universal human experience and something most people would be able to relate to.
It’s also true that the more selfless kind of love that doesn’t necessarily hope for a return is always something to aspire to.
I’m in a relationship for what that’s worth (maybe I should be more grateful huh!) but just a week or so ago I felt chronically and constantly lonely too (and suicidal), and the thought of that relationship was more of a reason to go than a reason to stay! Go figure!
We always want what seems most out of reach, I guess that’s the human condition. But things are not always as they seem and you just never know what you might be missing if you don’t stick around for it Devin.
Take care of yourself please. You are worthy of both love and respect. Zoe