Life is just luck of the draw
I wish I was luckier. Life has been going down hill for such a long time, and honestly I’m not sure I can endure.
I’m growing so tired, even my health is declining. I feel so sick, and I’m only 18
Life doesn’t seem to hopeful, and its not just because I’m young,
everything in this world is controlled by might, by power, and I, have no power
Sure, everything is in the mind, illusion and manipulation, but honestly I’m so tired
This world is full of the mindless, the uncaring and ignorant
So many horrible things are […]
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Luck Of The Draw
With all the things in life there are to hate and to make us so profoundly sad, love shouldn’t be one of them. It has always been a mystery to me. For some people love is a reason to live. Sharing love with that special person makes everything else worth it. Â It breaks through all the bullshit and gives them the strength to handle anything.
For the rest of us it is elusive. The ones we love will never love us. We are the constantly lonely and chronically untouched. Love is painful. It reminds us of all the things we’ll never have and we’ll never be.
I […]
I tried to kill myself a year and a half ago. After I got out of the hospital, it was easier than it is now to be hopeful. I could think about the future, imagine the sky was the limit. I could reinvent myself completely. I could forgive myself for the things I used to say and the way I used to be. But…a lot of time has passed since then, and in so many ways I’m not different, and I’m not better. I still feel completely alone most of the time. I still haven’t really found a place in life I belong. I don’t […]