i’ve had so many troubles throghout my life. loved ones dying, friendship brake ups, cheating, agressions, sexual harsments, lies, broken promises. yeah it may seem like they are little reasons but they sure were powerful enough to weaken me little by little. though i haven’t lost it all. i still have faith, hope, & love. even if i have hate, grudges, and disappointments as well. & even if i want to die, i still have hope to have desire to live. i have my lovely family that truthfully love me, few friends that love me and appriciate me. i have that idea to live for […]
July 2012
ugh, why? i have noticed i can talk and become friends with anyone online two of my best friends i met on SP. no they live to far to hang out but still. if i could meet everyone from online i wouldnt have many social issues, online i seem to know a lot and say things i probably wouldnt say to their face probably just “ok sorry” or “yeah uh huh” i wish life was hidden behind a screen im finding a lot easier to talk and meet people this way. i hate meeting face-to-face. probably in fear of rejection.
anyone else like me?
People die all the time. Lot’s of beings (human, animal, plant) are dying now.
Yet if I choose to die now, others act as though it matters.
Some die when they are old and their body gives up, others die from a disease. Some die in accidents, others in murders. Some die even before they were born. Me, I’m going to die by my own hand.
I’ve tried to kill myself 6 times in the past and I just wont die. Always somebody ends up ‘saving’ me and Im soppose to be happy for that. I’ve been to psychiatric hospitals the same number of times and it doesnt help me at all. When I come out I want to die even more !
As far as everyone knows Im the crazy, suicidal guy. It is hard to understand that I hate my life and every second in my life is misery ?
Anyway… There’s ways I havent try ! Maybe next time I’ll try to hang myself !
soive been tryin to die and i think i did it this time slipped on glass not a complete fail im layin in a boold pool
These past few days I’ve been talking to this young woman I will not say any names out of respect for her. But she’s had a really tough week, I texted her yesterday, I said “Hey, just checking in on you. I hope you haven’t ended your life. I hope your reading this.” I thought about her all day, she finally texted me back last night, she had taken the pills hours earlier. She said her liver was already shot, but I didn’t give up hope for her life to go on. I talked her into calling 911, I was so proud of her, and proud of myself for […]
Lonely and wanna help. I’m gonna be honest I can’t focus long enough to read long posts… SO if ANYONE wants to talk, email me. PLEASE… I’ve thrown my problems out at people enough and I’m going to listen to everyone else’s now. I wanna see how much I can handle, gonna be dead soon anyways. Here to listen… as long as I *am* here…
Where do I start? lets take today, worked for a promotion for 3 yrs, today rejected at the final hurdle, im just distroyed, my life has just been 1 rejection after another. To the outside world im a normal guy with a decent job providing a decent life for my wife and 2yr year old. But inside im in a world of hurt and pain, my parents have always been cold towards me and that had a serious affect on me, I was abused sexually by my older cousin, and because of the coldness towards me was never able to tell anyone, I blamed myself, I was […]
I know my last post was only a couple of hours ago, but something’s really bugging me and I was just wondering if anyone else has had the same experience. I guess I’ll put some background information for those who don’t know, but the question relates to any circumstance or scenario. Last year I was raped and nearly gang raped (I’m hoping as few of you as possible have been through that) and obviously most of it has stuck with me. But one of the details that has stuck with me most is what the guy who actually raped me said at the beginning.
“Don’t hold […]
Anyone else able to feel when the “darkness” is starting to come in??
Seems like I always get these headaches just before it gets real “dark” in my world.  So, I guess this is gonna be another crappy week.
And does anyone else here who did legit ODing suffer from really bad headaches since they OD’d???  Seems like I never really had headaches before, but now I get them a lot.
there is something wrong and it will not let me answer so I will just say my email is nvrshoutnvrfan10@gmail.com
i just want to die .
I just wanted to say goodbye to SP…thanks for all your help.
Everything will be fine soon.
I hate feeling sorry for myself. I realize how good I got it. How AWESOME my life would be to most. On the outside this “wanna-be hard ass” or that “beautiful smile that lights up a room” type of happy-go-lucky girl (As my 4th grade teacher would say). This girl who’s loud and fun to be around aka the LIFE of the party; that girl who doesn’t want the party to stop ……. That’s the problem ; that’s who you see … That’s who I allow you to see. I’m SUCH a good actress aren’t I? … because this girl inside , is dying … […]
but everyone I think that is suicidal or depressed, should listen to famous last word by my chemical romance. Mcr have got me through so much. But this song is special because of the lyrics, I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone. That song has gotten me through very hard times when I wanted to just end it and be reunited with my mom. So every one who feels depressed or suicidal should listen to that song. If not for you than for me. Please
Hello ,
I’m Desiree . 14 . sc . and I’m new to this. I’m contemplating on alot. My life is one big fat LIE … One big fat JOKE … and to be honest ; that’s all it’ll ever be. Things are going through my head right now … and it’s driving me crazy. I have NO ONE to talk to … I’m alone , lost , confused … Try living with 4 OTHER people in your house and none of them realize that all you ever are is sorry for making them so miserable. It’s 6:09 in the morning here and theres no one up […]
“if I’m lost at sea, tell my mother, my father, my sisters, my brother, my friends and my foes, and all my past lovers, that I will miss them so, but lord, I had to go.
Sorrows, to the sea,
We’re headed to nowhere, but nowhere is somewhere to me.
Take these broken things,
Turn them to something, but please don’t follow me.
If I’m lost at sea,
Tell my mother, my father, my sisters, my brother,
My friends and my foes, and all my past lovers,
That I will miss them so.
But lord, I had to go.
Imagine emotion that moves like the ocean,
You’re […]
Cut my wrists and black my eyes.
Thats all I ever do now. Cut my wrists and let my ex black my eyes.
I’m going back to him tomorrow…why? Because he loves me.
Dont you dare tell me that that isnt what love is. I’ll gladly wear makeup to cover my face.
I’ll gladly cut my wrists to remind myself what REAL pain is.
Getting beaten, raped, and verbally abused isnt pain, it’s life.
Sometimes when i stop cutting for a while, I forget REAL pain and I cry when he tries to hurt me…then i pick up my razor and slash my legs and wrists […]
This is going to sound corny and lame. I’ve tried to kill myself when I was 20 and when I was 22. I haven’t cut myself since for the last I want to say 3-4 years now? I have some larger scars higher up on my arms, and then smaller ones that really show if I some how let myself get tan all over my arms. It is kind of interesting… like you won’t see them until I point them out. So long I wear a shirt, no one sees the big scars, but at the same time I’m always some how reminded of my […]