i’ve had so many troubles throghout my life. loved ones dying, friendship brake ups, cheating, agressions, sexual harsments, lies, broken promises. yeah it may seem like they are little reasons but they sure were powerful enough to weaken me little by little. though i haven’t lost it all. i still have faith, hope, & love. even if i have hate, grudges, and disappointments as well. & even if i want to die, i still have hope to have desire to live. i have my lovely family that truthfully love me, few friends that love me and appriciate me. i have that idea to live for the simple reason that i want the bad side of the world to see that whatever bad they did to me, didnt broke me down. that i lived on. that im still here. that i stood strong. on the other hand i would want to die because i feel like i cant take it any more. plus if i did die that could add guilt to the shoulders of those who hurt & that is if at least one of them does feel sorry. also for them to feel sorry for whatever they did to me and for them to be in at least a similiar place they had me in; the place of suffering and pain.
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Killing yourself to get back at people, I don’t think it works out too well. Odds are they don’t even know, or care. It sucks but kind of how it is. I can kind of guess the last thing the people who picked on me/bullied me are thinking is “Oh man I feel bad for doing -insert whatever- to him”.
So I suppose, maybe just live for your friends/family/or even yourself? Your few friends don’t deserve it, and neither do your family or yourself (I’m sorry I don’t mean to come off as preachy >.<, so if you're offended I apologize)
Anyways all those tiny things do eventually add up though, so it isn't "a little reason".
I tend to ramble and bounce around sorry :). But it is good you have the love of your family, and a few friends that appreciate you for who you are. So yeah…
Cheers,